Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Old age is horrific to me.
Personally I find it so horrific how a human can suffer for so long in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, cruel tragic mistake, personally I'd prefer to cease existing to save myself from suffering than prolong it just to end up way more tortured, the thought of suffering until old age terrifies me. It's just pointless suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tormented by old age, to me old age sounds like extreme torture, I'd never wish to be enslaved in this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for just to face such agony but of course I never should have existed at all, human existence to me is just terrible unnecessary suffering.

I see it as an abomination to be burdened with this existence just waiting to die anyway capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and I suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence without the option to just painlessly die in peace to save myself from all future suffering in this existence I never would have chose that I just saw as causing nothing but harm. I'd always prefer to painlessly cease exist as what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, I don't see anything desirable about suffering so unnecessarily until old age rather the thought of such is so horrific to me, I wish to just never suffer ever again, it feels so cruel how I cannot just have a death like never waking again, death truly is all that can personally bring me any relief from suffering in this hellish reality, I'd never wish to be conscious of this existence no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to never wake again.
As long as I exist I'll only hope to never wake again, I only hope and wish for permanent freedom from this cruel, futile existence where all is finally gone and there is no more suffering, existence truly does feel like the most terrible, tragic mistake to me and it's something I'd never wish for no matter what rather I just want to never exist again, I wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where nothing can concern me and this existence is finally no longer my problem.

Existence to me truly is just pointless unnecessary suffering which is why I only hope to never wake again, the tiredness I feel is such that only dreamless, eternal sleep can take away for me and I'll always feel so tired no matter what, I just hope and wish for non-existence and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, torturous existence where there's all this endless suffering. Never waking again truly would solve everything for me as after all if there is no existence there is no suffering, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and it's a problem that only ceasing to exist can take away for me and bring me peace from. Eternal sleep is all that is personally desirable to me and I suffer so much from how I cannot just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never exist again, I wish for the option to just simply die and never exist ever again, eternal sleep truly is all that can bring me any relief from an existence I never would have wished for and never would have chose, I'd always prefer to sleep eternally than be conscious in this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is so futile.
Personally I'll always see existence as so futile no matter what, it just causes so much unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it, I see human existence as the most torturous, futile burden that always just feels like a mistake to me and under no circumstances would I wish to be burdened with this existence, I'd never wish to suffer in this futile and torturous existence that can get so unbearable way beyond how anyone can imagine it to just to decay and die anyway. To me existing truly is the most futile process of waiting to die that just serves no function and no purpose but to cause suffering until death takes away all anyway and I wish I never became conscious of this more than anything. I'd always prefer to die to suffer in this futile existence that just creates problems there was never a need for and suffering all for the sake of it, I'd always prefer to die than prolong the suffering in this existence I never would have chosen just to be tortured by old age and die anyway.

If I'm dead then nothing can concern me, nothing can matter to me and all is finally gone, existing will always be so futile to me and I see human existence as just being pointless suffering, it all just leads to death anyway so I'd rather cease existing sooner to escape from unnecessary suffering but really I never should have suffered at all. For me personally I could never see this futile existence as something worth suffering in and I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything, I suffer because I exist and it's suffering that only death can take away for me, non-existence truly is all I see as desirable and is all I'll wish and hope for no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in this terrible, torturous existence which really a reason as to why I only hope and wish for death, as I'd never wish to suffer in this horrific world and it's suffering that I always saw as completely unnecessary all for the sake of it. I personally see existence as an abomination, a horrific tragedy that just torments existing beings and causes so much pain, for me I just don't see benefit to being conscious in this cruel, futile existence and I see it as a burden to have to exist at all, I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this cruel existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, there's no suffering in non-existence which is why it's all that's ideal for me but of course I never should have suffered in this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake.

I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything, I just find it so terrible how I was forced into this reality where there is all this cruelty at all even know there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all. I'd never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for death, non-existence is all that could ever be desirable for me personally as only then is this cruel, torturous existence no longer my concern, the thought of suffering until old age is so terrifying to me, I'd never wish for that but rather I just want permanent peace, I wish for peace from this reality where there is all this cruelty and suffering and for me personally ceasing to exist truly is the only peace, I just want all to be gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've only ever wished for non-existence.
I truly only have ever wished for non-existence and wanting to die is all I know, I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence and I was never meant to exist as well, as long as I exist I really will only ever wish for death, only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence. To me existence feels like the most terrible tragic mistake and always will do no matter what, I've only ever wished for non-existence as I'd never wish to exist under any circumstances, personally I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every way possible and I'd never wish for any of this, simply just being conscious is enough to make me wish for death and I suffer simply from existing, in fact existing feels like nothing but suffering to me.


Personally I'll only ever wish for non-existence, I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing than to be enslaved in this meaningless, torturous existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway, non-existence truly would solve everything for me personally and it's all I wish for as it's what I see as the only peace. Death truly is all that can bring me any relief and it's all I hope for but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered, I wish I was never burdened with this existence, I wish I never became conscious, I find it so dreadful how this existence had to be imposed at all but now I suffer as a result of this existence all I can hope for is to never suffer again, I only wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering in existing which is why I only wish and hope for death, I'd never wish to suffer in this horrific world where there is all this terrible suffering and cruelty, I'd always prefer to die than be burdened with this existence that there was never a need for at all that only ever brought pain. I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist no matter what, personally I could never see any value in suffering in this reality, for me ceasing to exist truly is the only peace as after all only in non-existence am I unable to suffer, only in the absence of existence will all the suffering be gone.

To be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts is such a cruel, torturous burden to me, there's so much suffering in existing and I see existing as being only suffering until death takes away all anyway, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist can take away for me. What terrifies me is how one can suffer for so long in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony they can feel, the thought of suffering until old age in this existence that I always saw as a terrible mistake is horrific to me, all I personally hope for is an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is gone for me, there's so much suffering in this reality and if I no longer exist then none of it can concern me, I wish for non-existence but really I wish I never suffered more than anything, I wish I was never forced into this existence of unnecessary, pointless suffering, I'll always see it as dreadful to exist no matter what.

 

[davidtorez]

So much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering in existing which is why I only wish and hope for death, I'd never wish to suffer in this horrific world where there is all this terrible suffering and cruelty, I'd always prefer to die than be burdened with this existence that there was never a need for at all that only ever brought pain. I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist no matter what, personally I could never see any value in suffering in this reality, for me ceasing to exist truly is the only peace as after all only in non-existence am I unable to suffer, only in the absence of existence will all the suffering be gone.

To be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts is such a cruel, torturous burden to me, there's so much suffering in existing and I see existing as being only suffering until death takes away all anyway, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist can take away for me. What terrifies me is how one can suffer for so long in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony they can feel, the thought of suffering until old age in this existence that I always saw as a terrible mistake is horrific to me, all I personally hope for is an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is gone for me, there's so much suffering in this reality and if I no longer exist then none of it can concern me, I wish for non-existence but really I wish I never suffered more than anything, I wish I was never forced into this existence of unnecessary, pointless suffering, I'll always see it as dreadful to exist no matter what.

I wholeheartedly agree and feel your pain. I really can't wait until my time comes to depart this disgusting world

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always see it as something so dreadful to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence, I find it so dreadful to simply exist and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist can take away for me. To be forced into existence is something I'll always see as so terrible that just causes so much suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings.

I'll always find it dreadful how this existence was imposed with me having to suffer so much as a result, I just see existing as pointless, unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it and I wish I was never forced into this existence more than anything, I wish I never became conscious of this terrible, torturous existence and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead. Existence itself truly is the most terrible, horrific tragedy to me, it feels like a mistake to suffer in this existence and it's a mistake that only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me peace from, I truly was never meant for any of this and I never should have suffered at all, I find it dreadful to simply be conscious in this existence, I wish for the option to just die in peace and never suffer ever again and the fact that I cannot have that brings me so much pain, I suffer so much from being trapped in this cruel, dreadful existence that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never meant to suffer in this existence.
I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence and I never should have suffered at all, existence truly does feel like the most cruel, terrible mistake to me and always will do no matter what, personally I find it so dreadful to have to exist, existence to me truly is nothing but suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering that I was never meant for and under no circumstances would I wish for any of it.

To me personally existence truly is an abomination and it's one that just torments existing beings until death takes away all anyway, I was never meant for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be free from it all, I only hope and wish for the peace that only eternal non-existence can bring me. Non-existence truly is all I see as desirable, it's all I've hoped for, I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, futile existence that just causes so much pain all for the sake of it, I would always prefer to not exist, existence itself to me will always be the ultimate problem no matter what and it's something I was never meant for. Non-existence is always preferable for me but really I never should have suffered at all, I wish this existence was never imposed as it would have saved me from all this unnecessary suffering and I suffer just from being burdened with this existence, I'll always see existence as the most pointless, torturous burden no matter what and it feels so cruel how I cannot just have the option to painlessly free myself from it even know I was truly never meant for any of this, I never should have been forced into this existence of pointless suffering at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will always feel like an abomination to me.
No matter what existence truly will always feel like an abomination to me, it's one so terrible and torturous that just causes endless amounts of suffering, I'll always see existence itself as the most cruel, harmful mistake no matter what and it's one that I only hope to be permanently free from. The way I see it existence just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for at all, it's all just so terrible to me, there's just so much cruelty in existing and it continues and will do until the peace of non-existence takes away all anyway.

For me death truly is always preferable than all this terrible, meaningless suffering in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to die tortured by old age, the thought of suffering until old age is horrific to me, personally I'd always prefer to die in peace and forget about it all, existence could never be worth it for me, rather it's something I only hope to be permanently free from. I'd always prefer to cease existing but really I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I never became aware of the terrible, torturous abomination that is existence, to be conscious in this existence will always be deeply undesirable to me, I see nothing desirable about suffering in this existence and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly free myself from the abomination of existence in peace, to me existing truly just is pointless suffering and it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death truly is all that can personally bring me any peace.
For me the only peace truly could only lie in permanent non-existence where all is gone and this existence is finally no longer my problem, I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence brings no matter what rather I just want all to be forgotten about, death is all that can bring me peace as after all only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, only in non-existence will this terrible, torturous existence not concern me.

Personally I could never see value to being burdened with this existence rather I see existence as an abomination that just causes pain and brings suffering all for the sake of it, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me, as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of non-existence, I'd always prefer to die but really I wish I never suffered at all. I wish I was never forced into this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible tragic mistake, personally I see nothing desirable about being burdened with this existence rather existence is something I only hope for permanent relief from, for me existence itself will always be the ultimate problem that only never suffering ever again can bring me peace from, no matter what I'd never wish for any of this. I'd never wish to suffer at all, I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence rather I just want all to be finally forgotten about for me with no more pain, no more suffering, I suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again, I'm always wishing for the peace of eternal sleep and it's all I'll wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it dreadful to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I truly will always find it dreadful to suffer in this existence and I'll suffer until all is finally gone for me, existence to me will always be something deeply undesirable, it'll always be the most cruel, tragic mistake to me. I see human existence as an abomination that I see no benefit to, it could never be worth it for me and I have no interest in it either, I just have so much dread for what lies ahead as well especially as there is no limit as to how unbearable the torture of existing can get, it terrifies me how a human can suffer so long.

I just find it dreadful to be conscious at all having to wake again trapped in this cruel, meaningless existence, to me human existence truly is just unnecessary suffering, I'd never wish for the suffering this existence causes and I was never meant for any of this, as long as I exist I truly will only wish and hope for death, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering and existence to me feels like nothing but suffering. I'd prefer to die no matter what to escape from an existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for, only in death will I be safe from all suffering with this dreadful existence no longer my concern which is why it's all I wish for, non-existence truly is the only relief for me personally. Under no circumstances would I wish for any of this and I find it so dreadful how I was forced into this existence of pointless suffering destined to decay and die anyway when the alternative was never suffering at all, as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace that non-existence can bring me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only seeing non-existence as desirable.
I personally could only ever see non-existence as desirable, it's all I'll wish and hope for, human existence just feels like a mistake to me and I've never had any interest in suffering in this existence anyway, I'd always prefer to painlessly die no matter what but of course I wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless suffering. I only see non-existence as desirable as after all if I don't exist then nothing can concern me and this existence is finally no longer my problem, I only hope to never suffer ever again, I only wish for peace from the terrible cruelty and suffering of existing, non-existence is the only peace for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way.

I only hope to be permanently unconscious finally free from the cruel, torturous burden of human existence and there's so much cruelty and suffering in existing, it's just all so terrible. But in general I just only find non-existence to be desirable, I find it completely undesirable to be burdened with this existence, I only hope for dreamless, eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten about, eternal sleep just sounds so peaceful to me, it's the only relief for me, I personally would never wish for existence and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for nothingness. I just prefer death over suffering and struggling in this meaningless existence that was so unnecessary in the first place, existence is just an abomination to me as well, it's suffering and torture all for no purpose and it can easily get more agonising at any moment, personally I'd just prefer to die over all this, only non-existence can solve everything for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is only relief for me.
For me personally death truly is the only relief, I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this cruel, futile existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, to me existing truly is just unnecessary suffering and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from. All I personally wish for is to cease existing and never suffer ever again, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I just saw as such a terrible, tragic mistake in the first place, for me peace really could only ever lie in non-existence.

I'll only be at peace once I'm permanently unconscious unable to suffer in this existence, only ceasing to exist can bring me the relief and safety from suffering I search for as after all once one exists they are capable of suffering to unlimited amounts with no limit as to how much agony one can feel which is so horrific to me. I'd never wish for the futile and torturous burden of existing as a human but rather I just wish for nothingness, I only wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, for me non-existence is all that could ever be desirable. I personally see no value in being burdened with this existence just waiting to die anyway and existence truly is a burden that only death can bring me relief from and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope to never suffer ever again, I only wish for the absence of suffering where all is finally gone for me and this existence is finally no longer my concern, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, there cannot be any suffering in non-existence in fact there are no disadvantages to ceasing to exist which is why death truly is the only relief for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring non-existence.
No matter what I truly would always prefer to not exist, I'll always prefer to permanently cease existing than suffer in this cruel, futile existence I never would have chose, I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist, for me the peace of never existing again truly is always preferable, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me. All I see as ideal is permanently ceasing to exist where this existence is finally no longer my concern, I'd prefer to painlessly cease existing to save myself from and avoid unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have chose that I always saw as a mistake, in general I just have no interest in being burdened with this existence and see nothing desirable about it, to me human existence truly is just pointless suffering and it's something I'd never wish for.

I personally just don't see value to suffering in this existence rather I'd prefer to be unable to suffer at all, what appeals to me about non-existence is that it's permanent, I cannot suffer from it and it saves me from all future pointless suffering in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I never should have been forced to suffer in this existence. I personally never would have chose any of this and what I find so cruel is how there's no acceptance towards the personal choice of preferring to not exist even know this existence was imposed in the first place, all I wish for is peace from the cruel, torturous imposition of existence, non-existence truly is always preferable for me and is all I'll wish for no matter what, as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace that only eternal sleep can bring me.

 

[FuneralCry]

The agony of painless death being denied.
I find it so terrible how option of painless death is denied to escape from this torturous, meaningless existence that was imposed in the first place, I just wish to painlessly cease existing especially as I saw existence as something that caused nothing but harm in the first place and I'd never wish for any of this no matter what. I suffer so much from how painless, guaranteed death is denied as after all non-existence truly is all I see as desirable, I'd always prefer to die than be enslaved in this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for.

I personally find it so horrific how instead of the option being there to die painlessly, painless death is denied instead with the risks being there of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse agony, I just find it so horrifying how there is no limit as to how much a human can suffer in this terrible, torturous existence, there's just so much cruelty in how human existence is enslavement for me and I suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence without the option to just painlessly die in peace. I'd always prefer to die than be trapped in this existence of pointless suffering destined to decay and die anyway, existence will always be an abomination to me no matter what and I just want peace from it all, I only hope for the peace of never suffering ever again, all I've ever wished and hoped for is to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep with all finally gone and forgotten about for me, as long as I exist I'll only ever wish to be gone but of course the suffering just continues, I wish I was never forced into this existence more than anything as it would had saved me from all this suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just so pointless and unnecessary.
I truly have always found existing to be so pointless and unnecessary, it just creates suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all and personally I'd never wish to suffer in this pointless existence rather I just want nothingness instead, I wish for all to be gone and forgotten about for me. I just want peace from this pointless, unnecessary existence I never would have wished for and for me peace truly could only ever lie in never suffering again.

Personally I see no value in being burdened with this existence at all rather existence just feels like the most cruel, terrible mistake in the first place, personally I only hope to never exist ever again. I see nothing desirable and I see no benefit to being enslaved in this existence just waiting to die anyway, I could never see any point to being conscious at all in this existence rather such is just so unnecessary to me that just causes pain and problems that would have been prevented by never suffering at all and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence. To exist is something so futile to me, it's just pointless suffering until death takes away all anyway and I suffer simply from being conscious in this unnecessary existence and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist can take away for me, I wish I was never forced into existence, I'd never wish for any of the suffering and pain this existence causes and as long as I exist I truly will only ever hope to be free from it all, non-existence truly is all that can bring me any peace from the pointless burden of human existence that I'd never wish for under any circumstance.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is preferable for me than unnecessary suffering.
Personally I'd always prefer to die than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence, I see no value to suffering in this existence rather I just want to painlessly die in peace and forget about it all, to me existence truly is the most cruel, torturous burden that just causes endless amounts of suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I wish for non-existence as after all only then can none of this concern me, only then will I be unable to suffer, I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again and I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chose, I only see being permanently unconscious as desirable.

I'd always prefer to die as after all there are no disadvantages to permanently not existing yet there is no limit as to how unbearable this cruel, futile existence can get just for one to die in agony tortured by old age and it's all just for the sake of it anyway. Non-existence truly is always preferable for me no matter what and it's all I'll ever hope for, I just have no interest in suffering in this existence as well and see no value in such. I see existence as something that just causes harm until death takes away all anyway, existence just causes problems there was never a need for and suffering all for the sake of it and there's so much suffering in this terrible, futile existence that to me has served no function but to torment existing beings, I'll always see existence as an abomination no matter what and it's something I'd always prefer to be permanently unaware of, more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always see existence as an abomination.
I truly will always see existence as an abomination no matter what, it's something that just causes endless amounts of suffering and cruelty until non-existence takes away all anyway and to never exist again is all I personally hope for, I'd never wish to suffer in this horrific reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel. To me painless death truly is always preferable to all this pointless, unnecessary suffering, I personally only hope for death to bring me peace from the abomination that is existence but of course the suffering just continues instead, in fact I see existence as nothing but suffering, the amount of suffering in this reality truly is beyond comprehension, it's all just so terrible to me.

Personally I'd never wish to be an existing being rather I wish I never suffered at all more than anything, for me existence will always feel like a terrible mistake and I see existence itself as the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering and without existence one cannot suffer in any way. I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence no matter what, I'd never wish for the unnecessary suffering and torment of existing as a conscious being capable of feeling pain and being tortured to unlimited extents burdened with this existence there was never a need for. All I personally wish for is to be non-existent incapable of suffering in any way and incapable of thinking or feeling anything at all, I'll always see existence as an abomination, I see existence as something that just causes harm, it just causes pain, problems and suffering there was never a need for, for me personally non-existence truly is all I see as desirable, existence itself will always be what I ultimately see as the true problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

The peace of death is all I hope for
Only non-existence can personally bring me peace from the terrible cruelty and suffering of existing and it's all I could ever hope for, I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this cruel, torturous existence as after all, all suffering is ultimately as a result of existence, there cannot be any suffering in non-existence which is why to permanently cease existing is all I see as ideal. The peace of death truly is all I hope for and is all that can bring me any peace, I was never meant to exist and I never should have suffered in this existence at all, I see existing as just being suffering all for the sake of it and I suffer simply from existing which is why the peace of death is all I hope for but really I wish I never suffered.

I wish this existence was never imposed but now I exist and suffer so much as a result, all I can hope for is the peace of never existing again, I only wish for the relief of an dreamless, eternal sleep where all is gone and forgotten about for me and there is no more cruelty, no more suffering, I've personally only ever seen non-existence as desirable and it's all I've ever hoped for. I'd always prefer to die no matter what, a peaceful death would solve everything for me as it removes what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself, the way I see it to exist means to suffer and to die means to never suffer ever again and the absence of all suffering is all I hope for, I just find it a burden to have to exist at all and I'll only be at peace once this existence is no longer my problem and finally all is gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist solves everything for me.
It truly would solve everything for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way, there is no suffering in what I see as the ideal state which is non-existence and to permanently cease existing is all I wish and hope for, to never exist again is all I see as desirable and could ever do no matter what, ceasing to exist solves everything for me as it removes what I ultimately have a problem with which is existence itself, to me only being permanently unconscious is ideal.

I only wish to be permanently incapable of suffering free from the terrible, torturous burden of human existence, to me existence truly is just unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer and if I don't exist then none of this can concern me and this existence is finally no longer my problem, no matter what I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist which is why I only wish and hope for death, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I wish for this cruel, futile existence to be finally all forgotten about for me. Personally I'd be relieved to die, for me ceasing to exist is peace that cannot be found in this horrific reality where there is all this endless suffering and cruelty, I wish for death to solve everything for me and as long as I exist it's all I'll ever hope for, I was never meant to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, I'd always prefer to die than be trapped in this existence of pointless, meaningless suffering that just creates pain and problems there was never a need for, I suffer from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace as it truly would solve everything for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wishing to erase my existence.
All I've ever personally wished for is to erase my existence, I want it to be like I never suffered at all, I wish for it to be like I never became conscious at all, to me existence truly is something so terrible and dreadful that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it which is why I just want all to be gone and erased for me. I wish to disappear with this existence finally all forgotten about and no longer my problem, to me existence truly is just cruelty and pointless suffering all for no reason and no purpose and in general I just see it as a burden to have to exist, I see it as a burden to be conscious and experience anything at all and it's a burden that's deeply undesirable to me and always will be no matter what.

I truly was never meant for this cruel existence and I never should have been forced into it all but now that I exist and suffer so much as a result all I can hope is for all to be gone for me, I wish for my existence to finally be erased where there is no more pain, no more suffering and all is gone instead, under no circumstances would I wish to exist but rather I just wish for nothingness. Being able to erase my existence would solve everything for me as after all, all suffering is ultimately a result of existence and I cannot suffer from the peace of never existing ever again and to finally be at peace is all I've ever hoped for, I just wish to disappear from this existence I always saw as a dreadful mistake and one I saw as causing nothing but harm.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so terrible to me and it's certainly why I only hope and wish for death, only non-existence can bring me peace from all the pointless, unnecessary suffering this existence causes, personally I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this cruel existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake but of course I never should have suffered at all.

I never should have been forced into this existence where there is all this terrible cruelty with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, the amount of suffering this existence causes truly is endless and it just continues, for me non-existence truly is the only relief as after all only when I cease existing will I be unable to suffer. Only then will this cruel, torturous existence no longer be my problem, non-existence is all I've ever hoped and wished for, it's all I've ever seen as desirable, under no circumstances would I wish to suffer in this existence rather existence is something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, it's something I wish I was never burdened with. I wish I was never forced to suffer in this terrible, torturous existence that just causes endless amounts of suffering and cruelty, non-existence truly is the only peace and relief for me, I just wish for permanent freedom from this cruel existence that to me has served no function but to cause and bring suffering all for the sake of it and nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence. I'd never wish for the cruelty of existing rather I just wish to painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again, only eternal sleep can bring me the relief I search for.

 

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Only hope for non-existence.
For me personally non-existence truly is all I hope and wish for, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence and I find it so terrible to suffer in this existence at all, existence truly is an abomination to me, I see it as something so dreadful and torturous to suffer in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts. It's just horrific to me how there is no limit as to how much agony a human can feel in this existence that just leads to decay and death anyway, I'd always prefer to die than be burdened with this existence, to me human existence truly is just terrible cruelty and pointless suffering and it can easily get way more unbearable at any moment which is why I truly only hope for non-existence.

I only hope to simply cease existing in peace and never think or feel anything ever again, non-existence is all I hope for and will do no matter what, it'll solve everything for me and bring me safety and peace from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have wished for. If I cease existing then nothing can concern me and I'm incapable of feeling any kind of pain and incapable of suffering in any way which is why I truly only hope and wish for death, non-existence truly is the only relief for me personally, only in non-existence will I be safe from all cruelty and suffering with this existence finally no longer my problem which is why to permanently cease existing is all I hope for, death is preferable for me than all this pointless, unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for, under no circumstances would I wish to be burdened with this existence.

 

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Existence is a burden.
No matter what I truly will always see existence as a burden, I see it as so burdensome to be conscious in this existence and have to experience anything at all and it's a burden that only ceasing to exist can bring me peace and relief from. Personally I'd always prefer to die than be enslaved in this existence of pointless, unnecessary suffering, in an existence so cruel and futile permanently ceasing to exist truly is all that's desirable for me, I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again and there's just so much suffering in this terrible, torturous existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for, death is all I can wish and hope for but really I wish I was never burdened with this existence at all.

I find it so dreadful how I was forced into this existence of pointless suffering where I suffer so unnecessarily all for the sake of it and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, I suffer just from being conscious burdened with this existence I never would have chosen, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence no matter what. I see existence as something so dreadful and terrible as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty with their being no suffering in non-existence yet no limit as to how unbearable the torture of existing can get, personally I'd never wish for this existence, I see existing as so deeply undesirable in every way possible and I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope and wish to be gone.

 

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Death is the only peace for me.
For me personally death truly is the only peace and is all that can bring me peace no matter what, in an existence so cruel, torturous and futile ceasing to exist truly is the only relief for me, I'll only be at peace once this existence is no longer my concern with all finally gone and forgotten about. I see it as such a terrible tragedy to suffer in this existence at all, existence is something so dreadful and harmful to me as it's the source of all suffering and cruelty and as long as I exist I'll suffer, I could never see any peace in this reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I could never see peace in being burdened with this futile existence destined to decay and die anyway.

As long as I'm conscious I'll only ever hope and wish for peace and it's all I've ever hoped for, I see no value to existing, I see no benefit to existing rather I see existence as the most harmful imposition that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it, it's so dreadful how there's all this cruelty and suffering in existing and what terrifies me is how it can continue for so long. I'd just never wish for the torturous burden of existing as a human and I find it tragic how I was forced into this unnecessary existence of pointless suffering that there was never a need for at all, death truly is all that can personally bring me peace and is all I'll wish for no matter what, I only hope to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again with this existence I never would have chose finally no longer my problem.

 

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Existence is just unnecessary suffering.
It truly is for me which is why I just hope and wish for death, I just don't want to suffer at all in any way rather I just want peaceful non-existence instead where all is finally gone for me and I cannot suffer. To never suffer ever again in this painful, torturous existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake truly is all I see as desirable, I'd never wish for the burden of existence rather I just wish to painlessly die in peace and forget about it all.

I was never meant for an existence of unnecessary suffering and I find it such a terrible tragedy how it was imposed in the first place even know there was never a need for any of this and it isn't like I could suffer from never existing at all, I'd personally never wish to suffer in this existence under any circumstances and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for death, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for. My wish to die is a result of being conscious and aware and I'd never wish to be conscious in this reality no matter what, I'd always prefer to cease existing than suffer in this existence I always saw as a cruel tragic mistake, I'd prefer to cease existing to escape from unnecessary suffering in an existence I always saw as deeply undesirable where I'm just waiting to die anyway. I'd rather die in peace than suffer for the sake of it just to risk ending up in a situation of way worse agony at any moment, it terrifies me how a human can exist for so long, it'll always feel so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace to finally escape from all unnecessary suffering.

 

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Finding it deeply undesirable to exist.
No matter what I truly will always find it deeply undesirable to exist at all, I'd never wish to be conscious in this meaningless, torturous existence but rather I just wish for nothingness instead, I just don't find existence to be a desirable state, I never have done and never will do. I personally never would have chosen any of this in the first place and I wish that more than anything this existence was never imposed, I see existence as the most cruel, harmful imposition that has just caused endless amounts of suffering and I'd never wish to be conscious of any of this.

I just find it a burden to have to exist and experience anything at all and I personally suffer simply from existing, I suffer from being trapped in this existence I never would have wished for, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and it's a problem that only ceasing to exist can solve for me. I'd never wish for existence and it's something I see no value to rather it's something that just causes harm, problems there was never a need for and suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all. I could never see anything desirable about existence and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope and wish for death, I just want to fall into an dreamless, eternal sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten about, only ceasing to exist can personally bring me peace from this existence that only ever brought me suffering, I wish for non-existence where I cannot suffer in any way and this deeply undesirable existence is finally no longer my problem, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just want to never suffer ever again.

 

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Death is all that's inevitable anyway.
It truly is all that's inevitable with this futile torturous existence destined to all be gone no matter what, eventually this existence will finally all be forgotten about which is all I hope for. Personally I only see ceasing to exist as desirable as I see existence as something that just causes suffering, I see no value and no benefit to being conscious in this existence I never would have chose that I just saw as a mistake, I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing no matter what than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I never would have chose, I'd rather die than prolong all this unnecessary suffering just to risk ending up in a situation of way worse torture just to face the agony of old age.

Personally I'd just prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it, I just don't see benefit to existing at all, I don't see value to it rather I'd just prefer to die, death is all that's inevitable anyway so I'd rather cease existing sooner to save myself from suffering, eternal sleep is all I've ever hoped and wished for, I just want to sleep permanently and never suffer ever again. What appeals to me about being dead is that if I'm gone then I cannot suffer and all is forgotten about but really I wish I never suffered more than anything, I wish I was never forced into this existence I never would have chose that only ever brought me pain all for the sake of it, I just find it tragic how I was forced to suffer in this existence that just leads to decay and death anyway and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace even know death is all that's inevitable anyway, I'd prefer to cease existing sooner to save myself from all pointless unnecessary suffering but really I never should have suffered at all.

 

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Only in non-existence will I be safe from all suffering.
Non-existence truly is all that can bring me the peace and safety from suffering I search for, I'd never wish to suffer in this horrific world where there is all this terrible pain and cruelty, personally I'd always prefer to die than be enslaved in this existence I just saw as causing nothing but harm. Only when I'm dead can nothing concern me with all finally gone and forgotten for me, I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence but rather I just wish and hope for the peace of never existing ever again, only death can bring me the peace and safety from suffering I search for as after all, all suffering is ultimately as a result of existence itself with their being no suffering in what I see as the ideal state which is eternal non-existence.

Only in non-existence will I be unable to feel any pain, only then will I be unable to suffer, personally I find it an abomination to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence no matter what rather I just hope and wish for nothingness instead, only the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep appeals to me, I'd prefer to painlessly cease existing than prolong the suffering in this existence just to be tortured dying in agony from old age. I personally see no value to suffering at all and more than anything I wish I was never forced into this existence, to me existence will always feel like the most terrible mistake no matter what, I'd never wish for the pointless, terrible suffering this existence causes and brings and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace to prevent and save myself from suffering in this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for.