Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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It'd bring me so much peace to be able to painlessly cease existing.
It truly would bring me so much peace to be able to finally cease existing and never suffer ever again, all I hope and wish is for this cruel, futile existence to be no longer my problem and for all to finally be gone and forgotten about for me. I'll always prefer to die than be trapped in this existence of pointless suffering just waiting to die anyway, as long as I exist death truly will be all I hope for, I just hope to never exist again, to me existence truly is just cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, it's all so terrible for me.

Being able to painlessly cease existing would bring me so much peace and solve everything for me as after all there is no suffering in what I see as ideal which is permanent non-existence, to cease existing truly would be the only relief for me, it's all I see as desirable, in an existence so cruel and torturous death really is all that can bring me peace and to painlessly cease existing is all I could ever hope for. I just want to never suffer ever again, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist no matter what and I suffer just from being conscious in this reality, it truly would bring me so much peace if I could have the option of a death like never waking again to save myself from all pointless, unnecessary suffering in this existence I was never meant for that I never would have chose and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die and never exist ever again, as long as I exist I'll only hope to sleep for all eternity.

 

[FuneralCry]

No disadvantages to not existing.
There really are no disadvantages to no longer suffering in this existence which is what appeals to me about ceasing to exist, there cannot be anything wrong with no longer existing as after all, all pain, problems and suffering are ultimately a result of existence itself. The way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing way worse suffering at any moment and there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence, it's all just so cruel and dreadful to me.

And at any moment existing can easily get way more unbearable, I see human existence as just being pointless suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for where one is just destined to decay and die anyway, I just see so much cruelty in how the option of painless death is denied as I'd never wish to be enslaved in this existence of unnecessary suffering that was imposed in the first place especially as there are no disadvantages to not existing at all. Existence is the source of all suffering after all and to never suffer ever again is all I personally hope for, I personally see nothing desirable about suffering in this existence, I just see existence as an unnecessary harm that just serves no function but to bring suffering and cause pain until death takes away all anyway and if I die then none of this can concern me. I only see non-existence as ideal and I only hope to be permanently unconscious where this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake is finally forgotten about, I could never see benefit to existing, instead it's something I'd never wish for no matter what under any circumstance.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is the most dreadful, harmful abomination.
No matter what I truly will always see existence as the most dreadful, harmful abomination that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering, existence to me is such a horrific tragedy that has only ever tormented existing beings and caused them to suffer until death takes away all anyway and I see it as ultimately so meaningless anyway. It's all just pain and suffering for the sake of it and nothing would make me wish for existence rather I wish I never existed more than anything, I wish I never became conscious of this cruel, torturous existence that I saw as causing nothing but harm, in fact to me existence truly is just an unnecessary harm.

I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to decay be and tormented by old age, I just see it as deeply undesirable to exist in general, I'd prefer to painlessly die than suffer all for the sake of it, I wish to just simply die in peace and never exist ever again as to me existence truly is an abomination and it's one that just brings so much suffering. It's horrifying how there is all this agony and torture in this reality with existing beings suffering so unbearably every second and at any moment it can get way more agonising, for me only non-existence can bring me the safety and relief from suffering I wish for, I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I'll always see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied even know to me existence itself truly is an abomination, I see existence itself as the ultimate problem as it's the source of all suffering and it's a problem that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never had any interest in existence.
As well as wishing to cease existing because I see existence as so cruel and harmful I also just hope and wish to be gone as I have no interest in existing and never have done, I simply just don't see existence as a desirable state and find it a burden to be conscious and have to experience anything at all. I could never personally see any point to existing, I see existing as very futile and it's just waiting to die anyway, as after all eventually I'll cease existing no matter what and for me it'll be like I never existed as I'll be permanently unconscious unable to experience anything at all.

I just wish I was never forced into existence, I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence I was never meant for, never wished for and I always saw as deeply undesirable, I find it tiring just existing and simply existing is enough to make me wish for death, I've personally only ever wished for non-existence, eternal sleep is the only peace for me as only then am I no longer burdened with this existence and the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep has only ever appealed for me. I'm so tired of being conscious and as long as I exist I truly will always hope and wish for death, what I ultimately see as the true problem is existence itself and it's a problem that only ceasing to exist can solve for me, in fact never existing ever again would solve everything for me, I'll always find it a burden to exist and it's a burden I've never had any interest in and never would do no matter what, I just hope to never exist again, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep is all that's desirable.
For me eternal sleep truly is all that's desirable, I just want to sleep permanently and never suffer ever again, for me peace truly could only ever lie in being free from this torturous, futile existence, I just hope to fall into an dreamless eternal sleep with all finally gone and forgotten about. I'll always find existing to be deeply undesirable no matter what, it's just terrible cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it that was always so unnecessary, no matter what I'll find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence and it's suffering that only death can take away for me.

I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of an eternal sleep, only eternal sleep can solve everything for me in this existence I always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake, for me sleeping eternally is always preferable as only then am I unable to suffer, only then can I find some peace, I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence no matter what rather I just wish for nothingness and to never exist again has been all I've ever wished for. I'll always see existence as an abomination, it's just something so cruel and harmful that just causes endless amounts of suffering, only dreamless, eternal sleep can bring me the peace, safety and relief from suffering that I hope and wish for, I just want for all to be forgotten for me but of course the suffering just continues instead and I'm always so tired of it, I only wish to never suffer in this existence, I wish for peace from all the suffering and for me peace could only lie in never existing ever again, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering in existing and the suffering just continues, it's suffering that for me only ceasing to exist can take away, I'll suffer as long as I exist and I suffer just from existing, personally I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing than suffer and struggle in this futile, torturous existence where one is just waiting to die anyway. To me existence truly is the most terrible tragedy which is why I just wish for the absence of it where all is gone and forgotten about, there's so much suffering in existing and what is so dreadful to me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can get, I wish for the option to just simply die in peace as after all only then will I be unable to suffer, only then will all be gone and forgotten about for me.

I'll always see existence as an abomination that just causes harm, I'll always see existing as so dreadful and I have so much dread for what lies ahead, non-existence would personally solve everything for me and is all I hope for but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I never became conscious of this existence, to me existence truly is the most terrible, harmful imposition that causes endless amounts of suffering and I just don't want to suffer at all. I wish for permanent non-existence instead and non-existence is all I'll ever hope for, there's just so much suffering in existing and only in death will the suffering go away for me, I only hope to be permanently unconscious of this cruel, futile existence I never would have chose and never would have wished for, eternal sleep is peace for me which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just fall asleep eternally.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm.
Existence truly is something that just causes harm, it causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering which is all so terrible and dreadful to me, I'll always see existence as an abomination no matter what, it's just something that tortures and torments existing beings until death takes away all anyway and to painlessly die in peace where this torturous, harmful existence is finally no longer my problem is all I'll ever hope for. I truly was never meant to exist and I have no interest in suffering in this existence, only permanent non-existence can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all if I'm gone then I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally forgotten about, I only hope for this harmful existence to finally be no longer my concern.

I just see existence itself as an unnecessary harm there was never a need for, existence truly does just feel like the most cruel, terrible mistake to me and it's something I'd never wish for, I'd never wish to be conscious in this harmful existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and there's just so much suffering in existing and the suffering just continues. I could personally never see any point, value and benefit to suffering so unnecessarily in this existence rather I just want to painlessly die, I'd always prefer to cease existing in peace than be enslaved in this harmful existence that has just brought so much suffering and it terrifies me how one can suffer for so long, I'll always see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied for me even know existence truly is something so harmful, there's just so much pain in existing, as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to die in peace and forget about it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to cease existing.
No matter what I truly would always prefer to cease existing, I just want to never suffer in this existence ever again, I don't see any benefit to existence rather I just see it as something that just causes so much harm and suffering until death takes away all anyway. Non-existence truly would solve everything for me personally, it takes away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself which is why I'd always prefer to cease existing, to never suffer in this existence is all I see as desirable, I only find it desirable to be permanently unconscious incapable of feeling any pain and unable to suffer in any way and to me existing truly just is pointless, futile suffering there was never a need for.

I never would have wished for or chosen any of this rather I just want nothingness, I just wish for all to be finally gone for me, only non-existence can personally bring me the peace I search for from an existence I never would have chosen that I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake, I just don't have any interest in existing as well, never have done and never would do rather only the peace of eternal, dreamless sleep appeals to me. I find it so dreadful to simply exist, there truly is so much suffering in this existence I never would wish for no matter what, I wish I had the option to just painlessly cease existing and never exist ever again as I'd always prefer to die in peace than prolong all suffering just to be tortured by old age and it feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have that as non-existence truly is all I wish for, existence could never be worth it for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is an imposition.
No matter what I truly will always see existence as the most cruel, harmful imposition and it's something I never would have chosen and never would have wished for, I see it as something so dreadful to be forced to suffer in this existence there was never a need for at all, I'd never wish for this torturous, cruel existence of pointless suffering rather I wish I never suffered at all more than anything. I wish I never became conscious of this existence that was imposed in the first place but now that I do exist and suffer so much as a result non-existence truly is all I can hope for, I only hope to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues.

I find it such a terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed even know there was never a need for any of this at all, I'd never wish for existence as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings, if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way and never existing would had saved me from all this pointless, unnecessary suffering but of course the suffering of existing just continues instead and I never would have wished for any of this. I could never see any value, benefit or point to existence rather I see it as the most cruel, torturous imposition that just causes endless amounts of suffering and is ultimately responsible for all suffering, all that existence does is torment existing beings until death takes away all anyway and it's all just so terrible to me, all I wish for is to cease existing in peace and never exist again, I see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied even know this existence was so harmfully imposed, I'd never wish to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

The wish to never suffer ever again.
All I truly have ever personally wished and hoped for is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for this cruel, futile existence to be no longer my problem, I'd never wish for the pain of existing no matter what rather I just want to painlessly die where nothing can concern me and this existence is finally all gone and forgotten about. As long as I've ever existed I've just wished for nothingness, I see no point, value and benefit to being enslaved in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake, I wish for non-existence as after all only then am I unable to suffer, only then will I be unable to be harmed in any way.

I'd never wish to be conscious in this torturous, unnecessary existence and nothing would make me wish for that rather I just wish for non-existence, for me non-existence is the only peace, it's all that's desirable, it's all that can bring me relief from the cruelty and suffering of existing, I'd always prefer to die than be enslaved in this existence suffering so unnecessarily just waiting to cease existing anyway just to be tormented by old age. What I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself which is why I just wish and hope for the absence of it where there is no more pain, no more suffering and I can finally forget about this existence, to me existence will always feel like an abomination no matter what, it's just something so dreadful to me that causes so much suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, as long as I'll exist I'll only hope for dreamless, eternal sleep, I just wish to never exist again but of course the suffering just continues instead in this existence I never would have chose.

 

[FuneralCry]

Peace has been all I've ever hoped for.
I really have only hoped for peace and for me peace truly could only lie in never suffering ever again, I just wish for the peace of non-existence where I cannot suffer in any way and this existence is finally no longer my problem, to painlessly cease existing is all I'll wish for and is all I could see as desirable no matter what.
I just wish for peace from this terrible, torturous existence that I always saw as causing so much suffering all for the sake of it and the suffering this existence causes is endless with no limit as to how much one can be tormented, it's all just so dreadful and painful to me, there's so much pain in this existence that I saw as a mistake and if I cease existing then none of it can concern me.

I just hope and wish for peace and it's been all I've ever wished for, peace for me could never lie in the torturous, unnecessary burden of existence that just brings so much suffering until death takes away all anyway, I only hope to never suffer ever again, peace for me could only lie in being permanently unable to suffer with this existence finally no longer my concern. I wish for the absence of existence, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I'm always so tired of existing and always have been no matter what, it's tiredness that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me and bring me peace from, to me non-existence truly is all that's ideal, I just wish to be permanently unconscious unable to suffer and unable to experience anything at all, in an existence so pointless and cruel eternal sleep truly is the only peace for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just pointless suffering and cruelty.
No matter what I truly will just see existence as pointless suffering and cruelty, what is so terrible to me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get and I see it as all so unnecessary and futile anyway, existing to me truly is just waiting to die and I suffer so much from waiting. As long as I exist I'll only ever hope for death but of course the suffering just continues instead in this undesirable existence and it terrifies me how it can continue for so much longer, I just want to die in peace and never suffer ever again, under no circumstances would I wish to suffer in this existence, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist no matter what.

I just find it so dreadful and terrible how I was forced into this existence of pointless suffering even know there were never any disadvantages to being unable to suffer at all, existence to me truly does just feel like a mistake, I see existence as the most terrible tragedy that is just so incredibly cruel and causes so much pain. I could never see any point and value to being enslaved in this existence of pointless suffering and cruelty just destined to decay and die anyway rather I just wish for all to be gone for me, non-existence truly would solve everything for me as it removes what I see as the source of all suffering which is existence itself, nothing would make me wish for this existence of suffering, I see nothing desirable about suffering at all, I'll always prefer to die, death truly is hope for and is all that can bring me any peace, I just want to painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this cruel, futile existence and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I'd always prefer to die than be enslaved in this existence, I'll always see it as the most torturous, unnecessary burden to exist and it feels like I've been burdened with this existence for so long, for me death truly is preferable to the pointless suffering of existing, I only hope to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course the suffering just continues. To me existence truly is a terrible, tragic mistake and abomination, there's so much cruelty and suffering in existing and it's all so futile all for the sake of it.

Personally I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing, existing truly does feel like nothing but suffering to me and there is no limit as to how unbearable it can get, no matter what I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I see it as such a cruel, pointless burden to be conscious of this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and I truly never should have suffered, I wish I was never forced into this existence at all. To me human existence truly is just terrible, unnecessary suffering and I wish I never had to suffer, it feels like I've suffered for so long and I never saw anything desirable about suffering in the first place, existing will always be deeply undesirable to me which is why I'll only hope for death no matter what, I only wish for peaceful, permanent non-existence free from all pain and suffering where finally I can be at peace, I'll always wish for non-existence as long as I exist, it's all that can bring me any relief from this existence where I've suffered for so long.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
No matter what I'll always be so tired of suffering and it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me and bring me peace from, as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of death. I find it tiring to simply exist and just being conscious in this existence is enough to make me wish to never exist ever again, personally I just want to painlessly die and forget about it all, I only hope for true permanent peace and I'll only be at peace once this existence is no longer my problem.

Human existence to me truly is just unnecessary, futile suffering, it's something I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, I'd always prefer to die no matter what than suffer in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake, I feel so tired as what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and I was truly never meant for any of this, I was never meant for any of this suffering, I just wish to stop suffering and to me existence feels like nothing but suffering. Personally I've always felt so tired and I'll feel tired until all is finally forgotten about for me in death, what appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that it's permanent and I cannot suffer from it. All pain, problems and suffering are ultimately as a result of existence itself after all and ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me as it removes the source of them in the first place, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option of a death like never waking again as I feel so tired and always will do no matter what, I just wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in existing and what is so cruel and terrible to me is how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace to save myself from all future suffering in this reality where there is all this endless pain and suffering. To me existence truly is an abomination that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for, I find it such a terrible tragedy how existing beings suffer so much all because they were unfortunate enough to be forced into existence, personally I could never see any value to being tormented in this meaningless existence, I'd always prefer to die painlessly than be burdened with this torturous, unnecessary existence just waiting to die anyway.

Existence truly does feel like the most terrible tragic mistake to me and it's something that just causes and brings so much suffering until death takes away all anyway, there truly is so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so dreadful to me, personally I'll only ever hope for non-existence no matter what it's all I see as desirable. I just wish to be permanently unconscious and unaware of this existence I saw as causing nothing but harm, eternal non-existence truly is the only relief for me. I'd never wish to exist no matter what and I suffer just from existing and what is so horrific is how there is so much cruelty in existing, the way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experkencing way worse suffering at any moment, existing really can very easily end up getting way more torturous causing extreme agony as a result, it's all just so cruel, I'd never wish for the burden of suffering in this existence, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist is all that's positive for me.
It truly is all that is positive for me as I'd never wish to suffer in this torturous, cruel existence, to me existence truly is just endless cruelty and terrible suffering all for the sake of it, I find it an abomination to be conscious and have to suffer at all. No matter what existence truly will always feel like a mistake to me and I'd never wish for any of this, I'd never wish to be conscious at all, all I hope for is the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten about, ceasing to exist is truly all that's positive to me as it's the end of all suffering, I just wish to be permanently unconscious.

I've only ever hoped for peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again, I find it so terrible and dreadful to have to exist, I find it a burden to be conscious at all, I'd personally never wish for the burden of suffering in this meaningless, futile existence capable of feeling pain to unlimited amounts rather I just want peace instead, non-existence truly is all that's desirable to me. I just don't want to suffer in any way and to me existing feels like nothing but suffering, I see all suffering as so futile and unnecessary, I see it as a tragedy to suffer in this existence there was never a need for at all, I'd always prefer to die but more than anything I wish I never suffered, I wish I never became conscious in this dreadful, futile existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, death truly would be all that's positive for me, I have no interest in being enslaved in this horrific reality where there is all this unnecessary suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Being forced into this existence of suffering will always feel like a tragedy to me.
To me it'll always be a tragedy to be forced into this existence of pointless suffering, I see it as so terrible and dreadful to exist and always will do no matter what. For me existence itself is the problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings and it was all completely unnecessary in the first place, to me existence truly is just suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for at all and I see it as all so futile anyway, more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence.

I wish I never became conscious at all, to suffer in this existence will always be an abomination to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for permanent non-existence where I'm permanently safe from all harm and suffering, to never suffer ever again in this existence truly is all I'll hope for but more than anything I wish I never suffered. I wish I never became conscious in this terrible, torturous existence that always felt like the most tragic mistake, under no circumstances would I wish to be burdened with this futile, harmful existence that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering, I'd always prefer to be permanently unconscious than be enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts just destined to decay and die anyway. To be conscious at all is a burden to me and it's one I'd never wish for, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing and I find it a tragedy how I had to suffer in this existence even know there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

The wish to painlessly cease existing in peace.
All I've ever personally wished for is to painlessly cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues in this existence I always saw as a mistake in the first place, wanting to die truly is all I know and is all I've ever hoped for. Nothing would ever make me wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing, I just want peace instead and for me peace could only ever lie in never suffering ever again, I see existing as deeply undesirable in every way possible and I'd never wish to be burdened with this torturous, futile existence that I never would have chosen.

As long as I exist I truly will just hope and wish for death, I just want to never suffer ever again, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I wish for peace and for me peace could only ever lie in dreamless, eternal sleep where there is no more pain, no more suffering and this existence is finally no longer my problem. I'd always prefer to painlessly die than be burdened with this existence there was never a need for at all, I'll always see existence as just pointless unnecessary suffering, I prefer non-existence over suffering for the sake of it and I see existence as just being suffering all while one is just waiting to die anyway and I never wished to suffer at all and never would do under any circumstances. I just wish for nothingness instead, I wish for peace from the terrible, torturous imposition of existence, nothing would make me wish for the suffering this existence brings rather I just want non-existence instead, non-existence truly is all I see as desirable, I only hope to never exist ever again.

 

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Death is all that's inevitable anyway.
No matter what death truly is all that's inevitable anyway, eventually all will be gone and forgotten about in non-existence, I see human existence as just waiting to die where eventually I'll permanently lose consciousness no matter what which is all I personally see as desirable and this is certainly a reason as to why I see it as so cruel how the option for me to die painlessly is denied as after all if I'm dead nothing can concern me. There are no disadvantages to not existing which is a fate I'm destined for anyway, personally I'd rather die peacefully on my own terms than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I never would have chosen just to die in agony from old age.

For me suicide would simply be suffering prevention, it'd save me from all future, meaningless unnecessary suffering in an existence where I'm just destined to die anyway and once I'm gone for me it'll be like I never existed at all as I'll be unable to experience anything at all. I personally just don't see any benefit to being conscious in this existence at all, I just see existence as so futile and I suffer from how I cannot just have the option to die in peace in an guaranteed way, to me human existence truly is a burden, it's one I always saw as completely unnecessary that was so tragically imposed in the first place. I wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless suffering, I'd never wish to prolong the suffering of existing just to face the extreme torture of old age, existing will always be deeply undesirable to me no matter what, I could never see any point to any of this, nothing would make me wish to be conscious in this existence.

 

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Human existence will always be enslavement to me no matter what.
To me human existence truly will always be enslavement as after all it was something that was forced in the first place yet I cannot just have the option to painlessly free myself from it with no risks of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse agony. I suffer so much from being trapped in this cruel, torturous existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, there's so much suffering in existing and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist can take away for me.

I just wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless suffering and cruelty more than anything, I wish I was never enslaved in this existence and I just wish there's acceptance towards not wishing to suffer over suffering being seen as something to force and prolong no matter what, I'd always prefer to painlessly die than suffer for the sake of it in this existence just to die in agony from old age. It really terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long, to me existence itself is the true problem and I'm so tired of being enslaved in this existence, I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence suffering so unnecessarily all for the sake of it, I find it a burden to exist at all and what is so terrible to me is how I cannot just choose to permanently lose consciousness and never suffer ever again, only the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep is ideal for me, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, nothing under any circumstance would make me wish to be enslaved in this existence I always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never have had any interest in suffering in this existence.
I truly never have had any interest in suffering in this existence, I just don't see anything appealing about being burdened with this existence at all rather I just want to painlessly die and never be conscious ever again, existence to me truly does just feel like a mistake and it's something I wish I was never imposed. Existence will always feel like the most futile cruel imposition to me and it's something that causes and brings so much suffering all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway and I've just never had any interest in any of this, I find it a burden to have to exist at all, I see existence as so unnecessary and it's something I never would have chose under any circumstances.

For me painlessly ceasing to exist truly is always preferable, I just want to never suffer ever again, I just wish for all to be forgotten about for me, I really was never meant to suffer in this existence and never should have suffered at all, I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every way and I see nothing desirable about being burdened with this existence that there was never a need for at all. Existence just feels like a mistake to me and it's something I've never had any interest in, human existence truly will be just pointless suffering to me no matter what and I'll suffer until all is finally gone for me, eternal non-existence truly is all I hope for and could ever do, I just wish for the option to painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course the suffering just continues, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence no matter what, I could personally never see value to suffering in this existence.

 

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Only ceasing to exist can bring me the peace I search for.
It truly is all that can bring me any peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence, to me existence truly is an abomination, I see existence as the most terrible, tragic mistake that just causes so much cruelty and suffering, personally I truly do only hope to die, I just wish for peace from the imposition of existence but more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed.

I'd never wish to be conscious of this futile, cruel existence that I always just saw as causing so much pain, I personally just hope for the peace of never suffering ever again, I just wish to painlessly die and be unable to suffer. For me there could never be any peace in being burdened with this existence rather I see it as the opposite, human existence to me is the most torturous and undesirable burden where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay and die anyway and it's all just so unnecessary anyway, no matter what I'll always find it so dreadful to exist and I have so much dread for what lies ahead. I just hope and wish to painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again, as long as I exist I'll just hope for some peace but of course all the suffering just continues instead in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, nothing would make me wish for the suffering this existence causes and brings rather I just wish for nothingness, I just wish for the absence of all cruelty and suffering, I'd always prefer to die but really I never should have suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer so much from painless death being denied for me.
I truly do suffer so much from painless death being denied for me with futile, unnecessary suffering seen as something to prolong no matter what instead, as long as I exist I'll only hope for the option to painlessly die in peace and never suffer ever again but of course the suffering just continues in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake.

I personally just hope and wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence, I'd always prefer to peacefully die than be enslaved in this existence just to decay from age and die anyway, existence truly is a torturous, dreadful abomination to me with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's why I see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied especially as this existence was imposed in the first place, I just wish for the option to peacefully die and never feel any kind of pain and never suffer in any way ever again. To me human existence truly is just pointless suffering and cruelty, and I suffer so much from existing, there truly is so much suffering in this undesirable cruel existence that I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, I just wish for the option to painlessly prevent all future suffering, I just hope to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues where I'm just waiting to die anyway and as long as I exist to permanently cease existing truly is all I could ever hope for, I just want all to be gone for me, I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace with me trapped suffering in this existence instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Endless cruelty of existing.
There truly is endless amounts of cruelty and suffering in existing, it's all just so terrible and torturous to me, non-existence truly is always preferable for me than being trapped in this existence just suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway and as long as I exist I truly will only ever hope to permanently cease existing. I just wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I just find it such a terrible tragedy how I was forced into this existence of pointless cruelty and suffering in the first place, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence no matter what but of course the suffering just continues, personally I'd never wish to suffer in this horrific reality where there is all this terrible cruelty rather I just want nothingness.

I just hope and wish for some peace and for me peace could only lie in this cruel, torturous existence no longer being my concern, I truly do just see existence as just being cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's all just so terrible and painful to me, I'd always prefer to painlessly die than be enslaved in this existence where I'm capable of suffering to unlimited amounts. I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence where there is all this cruelty and futile suffering there was never a need for at all and as long as I exist I'll only hope for death, only in non-existence will this cruel existence finally no longer be my concern, only non-existence can bring me the relief and safety from suffering from this existence I never would have chosen I search for but of course I never should have suffered at all, I wish I was never forced into this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is the only relief for me.
No matter what death truly would be the only relief for me, it's all I hope and wish for, I just wish to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, personally I just want the peace of non-existence and it's all that could ever be desirable for me, I just don't want to suffer in this existence at all and I don't see any value to it either. I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this cruel, futile existence that was completely unnecessary and just caused so much pain all for the sake of it, I wish for non-existence as only then is this existence no longer my problem with me being unable to suffer and to never suffer ever again is all I hope for.

I just wish to be permanently unconscious and permanently unaware but of course all the suffering just continues instead with me just hoping and wishing to be gone, I truly do just only hope for death, I wish for eternal peace from all the cruelty and suffering of existing where all is forgotten for me, I'll personally only be at peace once I no longer exist and I'd be so relieved to be free from this existence that only ever caused me to suffer all for the sake of it. Death would be the relief for me as I was really never meant to suffer in this existence and never should have suffered at all, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist can personally take away for me, I find it such a deeply undesirable burden to exist and always will do no matter what, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this terrible, torturous existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I'll wish for.
No matter what non-existence is all I'll hope and wish for, I'd never wish to suffer in this terrible, torturous existence no matter what rather I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I just wish for peace from this existence I never would have chose. Personally I just want peace instead of being trapped in this existence of pointless suffering just waiting to die anyway, non-existence solves everything for me as after all it removes what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself, without existence I cannot suffer in any way which is all I see as ideal, eternal sleep truly is all that's ever appealed to me and to sleep eternally is all I hope for.

I have no interest in suffering in this existence and the thought of suffering until old age is horrific to me, I just don't see any benefit and any value to being conscious in this existence at all rather existence just feels like the most terrible, cruel mistake to me, nothing would make me wish for the suffering this existence brings rather I just wish and hope for nothingness, I wish for all to finally be gone for me. In an existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering, dreamless eternal sleep truly is the only peace for me, I just wish to painlessly cease existing and forget about it all but of course the suffering just continues instead, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist, to me human existence truly is just suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

The thought of suffering until old age is horrific.
I truly do find it horrific how a human can suffer for so long in this terrible, torturous existence just to face the torture and agony of old age, nothing would make me wish for this rather more than anything I wish I never existed at all, human existence truly is the true problem to me, I see it as just being pointless suffering all for the sake of it all while one is destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway and it terrifies me how the suffering can continue for so long. I'll always see existence as a dreadful abomination no matter what, it's one I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, nothing would make me wish for this existence of terrible, unnecessary suffering that there was never a need for at all.

And what is so cruel to me is how there is no acceptance towards not wanting to face the torture and agony of old age even know there are no disadvantages to not existing. Non-existence truly is preferable to me and is all I see as ideal and is all I hope for no matter what, having the option to painlessly die for me would be suffering and torture prevention, I'm just going to die anyway so I'd rather cease existing sooner to escape from pointless, unnecessary suffering and existing can very easily get way more unbearable at any moment as well. It's all just so terrible to me, for me non-existence is the only peace, it's all I hope for, existence could never be worth it for me rather it's something I only wish for permanent relief from but of course the suffering just continues and it really terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes endless suffering.
It truly does cause endless suffering which is so horrific and terrible to me, I'd never wish to suffer in this reality where there is all this dreadful pain and cruelty but rather I just hope for non-existence, only non-existence can take away what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself and save me from all future unnecessary suffering in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway. All I wish and hope for is to never suffer ever again, I only wish to be permanently unconscious of this existence I saw as causing nothing but suffering and existence truly does cause endless amounts of suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

I'd never wish to suffer in this existence no matter what under any circumstances, to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts truly is something so dreadful and terrible to me, I'd never wish to exist in this reality where there is all this endless suffering rather I just hope and wish for nothingness. I just want to die in peace and be permanently unable to suffer, only death can bring me the relief and safety from suffering I search for but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen. I truly will always see existence as an abomination no matter what, existence really does just feel like the most terrible tragedy to me, I just want to be permanently free from this reality where there is all this endless suffering, the thought of being enslaved in this reality just to die in agony tortured by old age really is so horrific to me, I'd never wish for the endless suffering this existence causes and brings.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only death can save me from all pointless suffering.
Death truly is all that can save me from pointless suffering, for me ceasing to exist truly is all that's positive in this existence where there is all this terrible cruelty and suffering. No matter what I really would always prefer to die than suffer in this meaningless, torturous existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway and I find it so cruel and horrible how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing in peace to save myself from suffering in this existence I always saw as so futile and unnecessary anyway.

I never wished to exist, existence to me truly is such a torturous, undesirable abomination ultimately responsible for causing endless amounts of suffering and cruelty and I see it as all so pointless anyway, it's all just for the sake of it, I wish for death to save me from all dreadful, terrible suffering in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel but of course all the suffering just continues instead with me just hoping and wishing to be gone. To me existing truly does feel like only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, there's so much suffering in existing and it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me, for me non-existence truly would be the solution to suffering, it'd solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself and without existence I cannot suffer in any way, to be permanently unable to suffer in this existence truly is all I hope and wish for and is all I will do no matter what, I'll only be at peace once I'm finally unable to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

To be forced into existence will always be dreadful and terrible to me.
No matter what I truly will always see it as so dreadful and terrible to be forced into existence, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me. To me existence truly is the most dreadful, torturous imposition ultimately responsible for causing endless amounts of torture and suffering, more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I never became conscious in this existence there was never a need for at all, to me existence truly is just pointless, unnecessary suffering, there's so much suffering in existing.

I find it a tragedy how I was forced into this existence of pointless suffering even know it was all completely unnecessary in the first place and there was never a need for any of it all, existence itself to me is the ultimate problem as after all it's the cause and source of all suffering, I'd always prefer to die as one cannot suffer from existing but all I see as truly ideal is never suffering at all. I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence and I'll always find it a burden to exist no matter what, it's a burden so cruel and futile that just causes and brings so much suffering all for the sake of it, and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to be gone, I just wish for death to bring me permanent peace and relief from the terrible suffering and cruelty of existing, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist, human existence just feels like a mistake to me and I see it as something that just causes harm which is why I find it such a terrible tragedy how it was even imposed at all.