Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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Hoping to never exist ever again.
All I personally hope for is to never exist ever again, I just wish for permanent peace from this futile, torturous existence and for me peace could only ever lie in non-existence, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I'd always prefer to die but really I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all. I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues in this existence I never would have chosen, to me human existence truly does just feel like a mistake, I find it a terrible, tragic mistake to suffer in this existence that was so pointless.

I see existence as something that just causes harm and I'd always prefer to cease existing than suffer all for the sake of it in this cruel, futile existence I never would have chosen, I just hope to never exist ever again and to never exist again has been all I've hoped for, I just wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is gone. In an existence so futile and torturous ceasing to exist truly is the only relief for me and I'd always choose to never exist again over suffering so unnecessarily just waiting and wishing to die, only ceasing to exist can solve everything for me and remove what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself. I just wish to never exist again as existence is the problem for me, I find it a terrible tragedy to suffer in this existence at all that was always so unnecessary, nothing would make me wish for any of this, I just wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I've suffered so much for so long.

 

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So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so terrible and torturous, personally I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this existence and death is all I'll wish for no matter what, I just want to never exist ever again but of course I continue to suffer enslaved in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake. There's so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace to escape from this existence I never would have chose, I just want to simply cease existing in peace where all is finally gone and forgotten about for me.

I'd never wish for the cruel, futile burden of existence but rather I just want nothingness, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, to me existence truly is an abomination and it's one I never would have chosen, nothing would make me wish for the torment of existing rather I just want to painlessly die and ever suffer ever again, I was truly never meant to suffer in this cruel existence, I was never meant for any of this suffering, non-existence truly is always preferable to me no matter what. I just want to cease existing to escape from all pointless unnecessary suffering, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering non-existence truly is the only peace for me, it's all I hope for, I just want to be free from this existence where there is all this dreadful cruelty all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, the suffering of existing truly is endless, I'll suffer as long as I'm conscious as I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible.

 

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The wish for permanent peace.
I truly have only ever hoped and wished for peace, I wish for permanent peace from this existence that only ever caused me to suffer and brought me nothing but pain, I wish for permanent relief from the terrible, torturous burden of human existence that always just felt like a mistake to me. I wish for peace and for me peace could only ever lie in an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is gone and this existence is no longer my problem anymore.

To me existence means suffering and it's suffering so pointless and unnecessary and I suffer from being conscious trapped in this cruel, futile existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway, I just want to be permanently at peace from this existence that only ever caused me to suffer. To be burdened with this existence is always something deeply undesirable to me and is something I'd never wish for no matter what, I just want nothingness instead of all this cruelty and suffering, I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I just want peace. I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, non-existence truly would solve everything for me, it'd solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all without existence I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in what I see as the ideal state which is non-existence, never suffering ever again truly is all I see as desirable and I suffer so much from how I cannot just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never exist ever again, I only hope for the absence of existence where all is finally gone and I can be at peace.

 

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Existence will always be the problem to me.
No matter what I truly will always see existence as the problem, I see existence as something so cruel and harmful as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings and without existence I cannot suffer in any way, without existence all is finally gone and forgotten about for me.

I find it such a terrible, torturous burden to be conscious in this existence, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me. I'll always see existence as something deeply undesirable and I'd never wish to exist, nothing would make me wish for the suffering this existence causes and brings, I personally just want to painlessly die in peace and never suffer ever again, I find it such a cruel, futile burden to exist and it's a burden that only ceasing to exist could ever bring me peace from. I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, I'm so tired of suffering all for the sake of it enslaved in this existence just waiting to die anyway, it always feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing in peace even know ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, only in non-existence will the suffering go away for me, I only hope and wish to never exist ever again, only ceasing to exist can solve what I ultimately see as the ultimate problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that can bring me peace from this torturous, harmful existence.
It truly is all that can bring me peace from this existence, I only hope to never suffer ever again, I just wish for permanent relief from this torturous, harmful existence I always saw as a terrible mistake, non-existence would solve everything for me as after all it removes the source of all suffering in the first place and without existence I cannot suffer in any way. I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I see it as so harmful to be burdened with this existence as after all there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this existence just waiting to die anyway.

I see it as an abomination to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from, I'll personally only be at peace once I no longer exist unable to suffer and unable to be harmed in any way, for me non-existence truly is the solution to save me from pointless suffering, I just want peace from this torturous, futile existence that just causes so much harm. I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this horrific reality where there's all this endless cruelty and torment and non-existence is all I'll wish for no matter what. I personally see existence as so undesirable in every way, I could never see value to being burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it and there's just so much suffering and cruelty in existence, it's all just so terrible to me, I'll always see existence itself as nothing more than an unnecessary harm and more than anything I wish it was never imposed.

 

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Denying painless methods will always be cruelty to me.
No matter what I'll always see so much cruelty in how painless ways to cease existing are denied with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead, I just wish to never suffer ever again, it's just so painful how there isn't the option for me to just cease existing in peace even know this existence was imposed in the first place, I never would have wished for the cruel and futile burden of human existence so I should be able to painlessly free myself from it whenever I wish to.


I just wish for peace from all the suffering of existing and I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence, I have so much dread for what lies ahead and I just find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence in general, I'd always prefer to not exist and I suffer so much from how I cannot just painlessly cease existing without the fear and risk of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse torture as a result, it's just so horrific to me how trying to die can go wrong. I'd never wish to suffer in this horrifying reality where there is all this terrible suffering and cruelty, I'll personally always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence, I just wish for peaceful non-existence instead, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again, being able to peacefully die would be such a relief for me and save and prevent me from so much suffering in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, the thought of suffering until old age is so horrific to me, I'd never wish for that but rather I just want nothingness, I just hope for the peace of never suffering ever again.

 

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Eternal sleep is all that could appeal to me.
No matter what dreamless, eternal sleep truly is all that could appeal to me, I just want to fall asleep eternally and never suffer ever again, personally I could never see any benefit and value to being enslaved in this cruel, pointless existence just suffering so unnecessarily just waiting to die anyway rather I just want to sleep eternally. Eternal sleep truly sounds so peaceful to me and is all that can bring me peace from all suffering in this existence I was never meant for that I never would have chose, I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence and to me existing feels like nothing but suffering, I suffer because I exist and it's suffering that only permanent sleep could ever take away for me.

I just want to sleep permanently and never exist ever again but of course I'm still trapped in this existence just suffering all for the sake of it, no matter what I'll find it so undesirable to exist, to me existence truly always was a burden that only ever caused me to suffer, I'd never wish for the cruel, futile burden of existing as a human rather I just want to sleep permanently, I only wish and hope for the peace of never suffering ever again but of course I just continue to exist, in general eternal sleep is all that appeals to me. I'd never wish to exist, the thought of existing until old age is so terrifying to me, I'd never wish for that but rather I just hope for nothingness instead, I only hope for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is forgotten for me and finally I can be at peace, I just want to rest, I've only hoped to never suffer again.

 

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Death is preferable for me no matter what.
No matter what permanently ceasing to exist truly is always preferable for me, I'll always prefer to die than suffer in this pointless, torturous existence that I always saw as a terrible mistake in the first place, I really was never meant for the cruelty and suffering of existence but rather I'm just meant for nothingness. I only hope to painlessly die and never suffer ever again and only then can I be at peace, in general I'd just always prefer to die, eternal non-existence is all I personally see as desirable, I just hope to cease existing in peace as I wish to never suffer ever again.

I just don't see value to suffering and struggling at all, and nothing would make me wish to be conscious of this existence rather I just wish to permanently cease existing, non-existence truly is all that's preferable and is all I've ever hoped for, my wish to die is a result of existence and as long as I've existed I've only ever wished for the peace of an dreamless, eternal sleep. I just want to painlessly die and never exist ever again, I'd always prefer to permanently cease existing than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I never would have chosen just to be tortured by old age and die anyway, there's just so much cruelty in this existence, so much suffering, I only hope to be permanently unable to suffer, I only hope to be unaware of it all, I only wish for an dreamless, eternal sleep where all is finally gone, I'd always prefer to not exist but more than anything I wish this cruel, torturous existence was never imposed.

 

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Existence is the most cruel, harmful imposition.
It truly is the most cruel, harmful imposition that just causes endless amounts of suffering and more than anything I wish it was never forced, I wish I was never forced into this cruel, futile existence I always saw as the most tragic mistake in the first place. I'll always find it a tragedy how this existence was imposed especially as there was never a need for existence at all with their being no suffering in never existing yet no limit as to how unbearable the torture of existence can get and I just find it a burden to exist in general, it's a burden that just causes pain and brings suffering and nothing would ever make me wish to be burdened with human existence rather I just wish for nothingness.

I just wish for all to be gone and forgotten about for me but of course I never should have existed, I wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless suffering and the way I see it existence truly does cause nothing but harm, I'd always prefer to die than be enslaved in this harmful existence capable of suffering to endless and unlimited amounts. I'll always see existence as an abomination no matter what, I'd never wish for any of this, nothing would make me wish to be conscious in this existence and I suffer so much from how I cannot just painlessly die in peace even know this existence was so harmfully imposed in the first place, this existence was forced in the first place so I should be able to have the option to painlessly free myself from it and never suffer ever again, being permanently unable to suffer truly is all I see as desirable and could ever do, I just don't wish to suffer at all.

 

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Never wishing to suffer in this existence.
I truly would never wish to suffer in this existence, nothing would make me wish for the suffering this existence causes and brings rather I just want nothingness instead, I truly was never meant for any of this and never should have suffered at all. I personally could never see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this existence rather I just wish to painlessly cease existing and forget about it all, I just don't wish to suffer in any way and to me human existence truly does feel like nothing but suffering, I suffer simply from existing and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway.

I personally just see existence as a terrible mistake and I find it deeply undesirable to exist in general, I'd never wish to suffer in this futile, meaningless existence there was never a need for at all and I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, I see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied even know existence to me truly is just pointless suffering, death is all that's inevitable anyway so I'd rather cease existing sooner to escape from suffering but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all. I wish I never became conscious in this torturous, unnecessary existence I never would have chosen that I just saw as causing nothing but harm, existence itself will always feel like the problem to me and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence, I just wish for non-existence where all is gone and forgotten and finally I can be at peace, true permanent peace really is all I hope for, I just hope to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering just continues with me enslaved in this existence instead.

 

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I've never had any interest in existing.
I really never have had any interest in existing, I see nothing desirable about suffering in this futile, torturous existence I saw as causing nothing but harm, to me existing truly is deeply undesirable and I've never had any interest in existing in general rather I've only ever hoped for nothingness, non-existence truly is all that's desirable for me and could ever be no matter what, personally I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just hope and wish to be gone. I find it a burden to have to be conscious and I'd never wish to be conscious of any of this at all, to me human existence truly is just pointless suffering all for the sake of it all while one is just waiting to die anyway, destined to decay and be tortured by old age and I personally see nothing appealing about any of this.

I truly do have no interest in suffering for the sake of it in this unnecessary existence that was so harmfully imposed in the first place and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer at all, I never would have wished for this existence of pointless suffering, non-existence is always preferable for me but more than anything I wish I never existed at all, I never should have been forced into this existence that I saw as just causing endless amounts of pain and suffering all for the sake of it. I see nothing desirable about being conscious at all and never could do, I'd prefer to not exist under all circumstances, in this existence where there is all this suffering I only hope to not exist, I truly was never meant for any of this and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace and never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

The suffering of existence is endless.
It truly is endless, there is endless amounts of suffering and cruelty in existing which is just so terrible and dreadful to me, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake, to me existence truly is an abomination that just causes suffering, I see existence as just causing harm and there is no limit as to how unbearable the suffering of existing can get, I personally just hope to painlessly die in peace and never exist ever again.

I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this horrific reality and to me existence truly does feel like nothing but suffering, I suffer just from existing and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, I truly was never meant to suffer in this cruel torturous existence where there is all this terrible suffering and the suffering just continues and it can easily get way more torturous at any moment. I personally just wish for non-existence and I'd always prefer to not exist over being burdened with this existence, to me humn existence truly does just feel like enslavement as it was something I was forced into in the first place yet I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace to save myself from suffering in this reality where the suffering is endless and just continues. Nothing would make me wish for existence rather I just want all to be gone for me, I wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering and incapable of being harmed in any way, I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to decay and die anyway and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I just want nothingness instead, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, existence will always be the problem for me no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in how suffering is seen as to force and prolong.
I'll always see so much cruelty in how suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I just wish there's acceptance towards preferring to not exist as I'd never wish to suffer in this futile meaningless existence rather I just want nothingness, I'd prefer to painlessly cease existing to save myself from the deeply undesirable burden of being conscious in this existence. Existence really is so cruel to me and I'd prefer to die than suffer all for the sake of it in this torturous, futile existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, this existence was imposed which is always dreadful to me, I see existence as such a terrible tragedy which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just painlessly die in peace.

I suffer from how painless death is denied for me and instead I'm trapped and enslaved in this existence just waiting to die anyway and I'd always prefer to die no matter what, non-existence truly is all I hope and wish for, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone for me but of course painless death is denied for me with suffering forced and I just don't wish to suffer at all, I see no point, benefit and value to suffering. I just hope to die in peace and never suffer ever again, human existence was never worth it for me and it was something I always saw as an undesirable mistake so I should be able to painlessly free myself from it when I wish to, I should be able to find permanent peace and safety from suffering but of course I'm trapped in this horrific reality instead just wishing and hoping to be gone, I only hope to never suffer ever again.

 

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Existence is the problem to me.
I will personally always see existence itself as the problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings, nothing would make me wish to be conscious burdened with this existence and to never suffer ever again is all I could hope for, I just want all to be gone for me. What I have a problem with is existence itself, I find it such a cruel, futile burden to be enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to decay and die anyway and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I wish for non-existence because I exist and it's all I'll hope for no matter what.

I just don't have any interest in and see no value to the burden of existing as a human, it's something that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway and to be permanently unable to suffer is all I wish for, I wish to be incapable of suffering and incapable of feeling any pain, nothing would make me wish for existence rather I just wish for non-existence. To me existence truly does just feel like a terrible, torturous mistake and it's something deeply undesirable that just causes so much suffering, existing to me truly does feel like nothing but suffering and I'll suffer and wish for death as long as I exist, existence itself is ultimately the true problem to me causing so much pain and problems there was never a need for at all, I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every way, eternal non-existence is the only ideal state for me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace that non-existence can bring me.

 

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So tired of being burdened with this existence.
I've personally always felt so tired of being burdened with this existence and it truly feels like I've suffered for so long, no matter what nothing could ever make me wish for the suffering this existence causes and brings, I'll always see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden that I never would have wished for and never would have chosen that I see as so deeply undesirable in every way possible, for me simply just existing is tiring.

I feel tired because I suffer in this cruel, futile existence, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all under any circumstances and I truly was never meant for any of this as well, I was never meant for any of this suffering but of course I'm enslaved in this existence just hoping to be gone, waiting to cease existing anyway, I wish for death as I suffer just from existing.

I find it so burdensome to have to exist and I'll feel tired until I no longer exist, I only hope to be non-existent where this undesirable existence is finally no longer my problem, non-existence truly would solve everything for me as after all there are no disadvantages to permanently ceasing to exist. If I die then nothing can concern me, I only hope and wish to be unconscious incapable of suffering in any way, I'm always so tired of this and it just feels so cruel to me how I cannot just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again because to permanently cease existing is all I could ever hope for. I'd always prefer to painlessly die than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I never would have chosen just to die in agony from old age, to me existence truly is the most cruel, dreadful burden.

 

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Only non-existence can save me from all future, unnecessary suffering.
It truly is all that can save me from all future suffering in this existence I never would have chose and never would have wished for, no matter what I'd prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence that was completely unnecessary in the first place and just caused so much suffering all for the sake of it. If I don't exist then nothing can concern me and all is finally gone for me which is why to permanently cease existing is all I hope for, there are no disadvantages to not existing for all eternity in fact to me permanent non-existence is the only ideal state.

Eternal non-existence truly I see as desirable, nothing under any circumstances would make me wish to suffer in this existence, in an existence so cruel and futile permanent non-existence truly is the only relief for me and it's all I hope for, only in death will I be safe from all suffering and the amount of suffering this existence causes really is endless, I see existence as the most terrible, torturous mistake that has just caused nothing but harm all for one just to decay and die anyway. I'd never wish to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence just to die in agony from old age, the thought of suffering until old age is so horrific to me which is why I only wish and hope for non-existence to save me from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, ceasing to exist for me truly would be suffering prevention which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing in peace and never exist again, I only wish for permanent relief and freedom from this existence.

 

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Existence was never worth it for me in the first place.
Existence truly was never worth it for me and never could be no matter what, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this futile, undesirable existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake, there's just so much suffering in existing and I'll suffer as long as I exist, I could never see any point, benefit or value to existing rather I see existence as the problem.

I see it as such a torturous burden to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, nothing truly would make me wish for the suffering of existing instead I just want to painlessly die and forget about it all, I could never have any interest in any of this anyway and I'm always so tired of existing, I just don't find existence to be worth it in general, I never have done and never will do rather I just want to cease existing in peace with this existence all gone and forgotten about. I wish for peace from this existence I was never meant for and never saw as worth it in the first place, to me human existence truly is just pointless unnecessary suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it, I really would never wish for any of this and more than anything I wish I never suffered, I wish I was never forced into existence. The fact that this existence was even imposed at all is such a terrible tragedy to me, I suffer from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully free myself from this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead, I personally only hope for non-existence.

 

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Only ever hoped for eternal sleep.
I truly have only hoped for eternal sleep and it's all I'll hope for as long as I'm unfortunate enough to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, cruel mistake, all I personally hope for is to painlessly die in peace and never exist ever again but of course all the suffering just continues with me just hoping to be gone, eternal sleep really would solve everything for me as after all it removes what I see as the ultimate problem which is existence itself. I cannot suffer from never existing ever again which is why dreamless, eternal sleep truly is all I hope for, I just wish for this existence to finally be all forgotten about for me, I wish for no more cruelty, no more suffering rather I only hope for permanent relief from this existence I never would have chosen.

In an existence where there is all this futile, unnecessary suffering eternal sleep truly is all I could ever see as desirable, I only wish to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence just suffering for the sake of it waiting to die anyway. Under no circumstances could I and would I ever wish to suffer in this existence and I just don't see any benefit to being conscious in general, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I find existence to be a burden that just creates problems there was never a need for and so much suffering all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, in an existence where there is all this suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel dreamless eternal sleep truly is all I hope for and could ever do no matter what.

 

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Death is the only peace for me.
In an existence where there is all this terrible cruelty and unnecessary suffering death truly is the only peace for me, I only hope to never exist ever again but of course the suffering just continues with me trapped in this existence just hoping and wishing to be gone.

Nothing under any circumstances would make me wish for the suffering this existence causes rather I just hope and wish for nothingness, I wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where finally all is forgotten and nothing can concern me with this torturous, futile existence no longer my problem, for me peace truly could only lie in being permanently unconscious. I only hope and wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and there is no more pain, no more suffering, I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, unnecessary existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for. Rather I just hope to painlessly cease existing, I wish for permanent peace from an existence that has only ever caused me to suffer and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway. To me existence truly does feel like nothing but suffering and I suffer simply from existing, death is the only peace for me as I find it so deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible, nothing would make me wish for the suffering this existence causes and brings, I only hope for the relief that only never existing ever again can bring me, peace for me truly could only lie in the absence of existence where I cannot suffer for all eternity and as long as I exist peace is all I'll hope for.

 

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Never wanting to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I truly would never wish to suffer in this existence, I just wish for permanent peace, freedom and safety from suffering in an existence that just causes so much of it all for the sake of it, I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing and to never suffer ever again truly is all I could hope for. I just want peace from the terrible, torturous burden of human existence, I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every way possible and it's something I'll never wish for, I just hope and wish to permanently cease existing instead, nothing would make me wish for the suffering this existence causes and brings, I'd always prefer to not exist as only then can nothing concern me but of course I wish I never suffered more than anything.

I wish this futile, torturous existence that only ever caused me to suffer was never imposed, ceasing to exist truly would be peace for me and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer, I only hope and wish for the absence of existence where all is gone and forgotten, I wish to forget about this existence that only ever brought me pain and there's so much pain in this cruel, futile existence I just saw as causing nothing but harm. I'll always prefer to die than be enslaved in this harmful unnecessary existence just waiting to cease existing anyway, in an existence where there is all this suffering I only hope for non-existence, I'll always see existence as the most terrible, tragic mistake no matter what, it's something I'd never wish for and it's something I only wish for permanent eternal peace from, I just don't see point, benefit and value to suffering at all rather I just want to painlessly die and forget about it all.

 

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So horrific to me how a human can suffer for so long.
I personally truly do find it so horrific how a human can suffer for so long in this existence I always saw as such a cruel, futile mistake, no matter what I'd always prefer to die than suffer all for the sake of it in this pointless, unnecessary existence I never would have chosen. I'd always prefer to painlessly die than suffer so unnecessarily just to be tortured by old age, in an existence where there is all this cruelty and suffering non-existence is all that appeals to me, it's all that can personally bring me peace from this existence there was never a need for at all that I saw as just causing so much unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it.

I really do find it tiring to simply be conscious and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I just want nothingness instead as I find it deeply undesirable to exist in general, I only hope for permanent eternal peace from this existence of pointless suffering and cruelty where existing beings suffer all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway but of course I continue to be enslaved in this existence. I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace and never exist again and to me existence truly feels like nothing but suffering, I'd always prefer to painlessly die than prolong suffering just to suffer way more and cease existing anyway in this existence I never would have chose, non-existence truly is the only relief for me personally, it's the only relief from an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway only destined to suffer even more, it terrifies me how a human can suffer so long, I just wish to painlessly die and never exist ever again.

 

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Existence was never worth it for me.
Existence truly was never worth it for me in the first place and never could be no matter what, I see no point, benefit or value to suffering in this existence rather I just want to painlessly die in peace and never exist ever again, the fact that this existence was even imposed at all truly is the most terrible, cruel tragedy to me. I see human existence as being nothing more than pointless, unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and the fact that this existence causes all this suffering is just so dreadful to me, I wish I was never forced into this existence and in general I just find it deeply undesirable to exist in general.

I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all and I find it a burden to be conscious in this existence suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway and to me existence truly is just waiting to die, it's all so futile to me and cruel, death would be the relief for me as after all only then am I unable to suffer, there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep after all yet the suffering of existing is endless but only never existing is true perfection to me as I never saw existence as worth it in the first place and never could do. Nothing would make me wish for any of this futile, unnecessary suffering rather I just want to never exist ever again, non-existence is all I've hoped for and could ever do no matter what, I never should have been forced to suffer in this existence I always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake, I've only ever wished to cease existing, my wish to die is a result of suffering in this existence.

 

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Wishing to permanently erase my existence.
All I hope and wish for is to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, being able to permanently erase my existence truly would bring me so much peace from this torturous, futile existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway. I only hope for all the suffering to be gone for me, I only hope to never suffer ever again but of course I just continue to suffer in this existence I never would have wished for, to me human existence truly is just pointless suffering and cruelty all for one to just decay from age and die anyway, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake rather I just wish for nothingness.

I wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is gone for me, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering in any way but of course all the suffering just continues with me trapped in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen. It just feels so cruel to me how I cannot just painlessly escape from this existence in peace as non-existence truly is all I could ever wish for, I just want this existence to be all gone and forgotten about, if it's up to me I'd choose to disappear, I just want it to be like this existence was never imposed and the fact that it was and I have to suffer so much as a result is always such a tragedy for me. Only non-existence can solve everything for me but really I wish I could erase my existence, nothing would make me wish for existence and I see it as something that just causes suffering and harm until death takes away all anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

The cruelty of being denied painless death.
I'll always see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead, no matter what I'd never wish to suffer in this terrible torturous existence rather I just want nothingness instead, there's so much cruelty in how I cannot just painlessly die to escape from and save myself from all future pointless suffering in this existence I never would have wished for. I'd always prefer to cease existing than be enslaved in this futile, unnecessary existence no matter what and human existence truly is enslavement to me as it's something I was forced into yet I cannot just have the option to painlessly free myself from it in peace to prevent suffering in an existence that just feels like nothing but suffering.

It just feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to simply die in peace as non-existence is all I could ever hope and wish for, I just wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where I'm no longer burdened with this existence and all is finally gone, for me non-existence truly is always preferable, I'd rather painlessly die than suffer for the sake of it just to die tortured by old age. The thought of suffering until old age is so terrifying to me, I'd never wish for that but rather I just want nothingness, I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and always will do, to me human existence really is just suffering all for the sake of it, it's so horrible and dreadful to me how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing in peace with no risks of ending up in way worse agony even know this existence was forced in the first place, I'd never wish for the suffering this existence brings.

 

[SilentSadness]

I just want to be dead, I really hate being here every second, there is nothing desirable for me here, others are so dreadful and cruel, this world is irredeemably corrupt, life is a mistake, I really really wish for peaceful death and can't wait for the day I'll finally achieve it, what a tragedy this whole experience has been.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it a burden to exist.
No matter what I truly will always find it a burden to exist, I find it so burdensome to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence that I always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake, all I personally hope for is to painlessly cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again. I just wish for this existence to be all gone and forgotten about for me, I'll always see human existence as the most dreadful burden that just causes endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it and it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me peace from.

I find it such a futile, unnecessary burden to be conscious and have to exist at all, nothing would make me wish to be burdened with this existence and I find it a tragedy how this existence was even imposed, more than anything I wish I was never forced to exist and I suffer simply from existing, to me human existence truly is just suffering all for the sake of it and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway. As long as I exist I'll only hope for peace and relief from the burden of existence and the relief I search for is such that only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing. I just wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally gone, human existence will always be a burden to me that just causes pointless suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel until death takes away all anyway, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself as after all it's the source of all suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've only ever wished to be permanently free from this existence.
I truly have only ever wished to be permanently free from this cruel, futile existence and it's all I could ever wish for no matter what, for me wanting to cease existing is a result of existence, it's a response to me being burdened with this existence forced to be conscious just waiting to die anyway. I personally just don't see any value to the burden of existing as a human, I just don't see any benefit to it either, I see it as something that just causes harm and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel until death takes away all anyway.

Personally I truly do only hope for dreamless, eternal sleep, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again but of course I continue to suffer in this existence I was never meant for and never would have chose, I suffer because I exist and it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me, wanting non-existence is all I know, I've never wished for existence and never could do. I see existence as something deeply undesirable in every way possible that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and there truly is so much suffering in this torturous, unnecessary existence I always saw as a mistake in the first place. It's suffering that only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from because after all only in non-existence am I unable to suffer, I only wish to be permanently unconscious and unable to suffer in any way, the thought of suffering until old age enslaved in this existence truly is so terrifying to me, I personally just want peace instead of all this suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can bring me peace from the terrible, dreadful tragedy of existence.
It truly is all that can bring me any peace, I just hope and wish to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again, I'll always see existence as the most terrible, dreadful tragedy no matter what and it's one that just causes endless amounts of suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway. Existence to me truly does feel like an abomination that causes so much harm, I'd never wish to suffer in this harmful, torturous existence, I find it so tragic how I was forced into this existence of pointless, unnecessary suffering in the first place that there was never a need for at all, more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed.

I wish I never became conscious at all forced to suffer in this existence all for the sake of it, I see existence as a tragedy and it's one ultimately responsible for creating all suffering, I see it as so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway, there's so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so painful, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to painlessly cease existing in peace and forget about it all. Nothing would make me wish for existence rather I just see existence as a mistake and it's one that just brings so much suffering until all is forgotten about in death, no matter what existence will always be an abomination to me, I truly was never meant for any of this and I never should have suffered at all, ceasing to exist really is the only peace for me, I only hope to never suffer again, only non-existence can solve what I see as the true problem which is existence itself.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence truly is so harmful.
It certainly is so harmful, the amount of harm this cruel, torturous existence causes truly is endless, I see existence itself as being nothing more than an unnecessary harm that just creates and causes so much suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so terrible, personally I only wish for death as only then is this existence no longer my problem. I'd never wish for something as incredibly harmful as existence no matter what that just causes so much terrible suffering all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, existence is so harmful as after all it's the cause of all suffering, without existence one cannot suffer and cannot be harmed in any way and to never suffer ever again truly is all I hope and wish for.

I only hope to be permanently unaware of this deeply undesirable harmful existence that just torments existing beings all for the sake of it, I'd never wish to be conscious in this horrific reality capable of suffering to unlimited and endless amounts rather I just wish for the relief that only non-existence can bring me. I only wish to be permanently free from this harmful, pointless existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake in the first place and what is so terrible to me is how there's no acceptance towards preferring to never suffer ever again, I only hope for true permanent peace from all the terrible endless suffering and cruelty of existence, the fact that this existence was imposed will always be a tragedy to me, the way I see it existence truly does cause nothing but harm, it's always so harmful to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that can bring me peace.
For me the only peace truly could only lie in non-existence, I just hope for permanent peace from this torturous, futile existence, I just wish for the peace of never suffering again, I'll always see existence as the most harmful imposition that was completely unnecessary and just caused suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for and if I no longer exist then none of this can concern me and all is finally gone and forgotten.

I just wish to forget about this existence and I truly have only ever hoped for the peace of never suffering ever again, I just wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep where finally this existence is no longer my concern, I just want to fall asleep eternally and never exist ever again, I only hope to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering in any way and incapable of feeling any kind of pain and as long as I exist I'll suffer and hope to be gone. I only wish for peace from all the suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, to me existence truly is an abomination that just causes so much harm until death takes away all anyway and it's one that only death can bring me relief from, I personally suffer just from being conscious and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all under any circumstance rather I just want nothingness, I just want to never exist ever again. I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence and to me existing truly does feel like only suffering, there truly is so much suffering in this cruel, unnecessary existence which is certainly why non-existence is the only peace for me.