Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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Never having any interest in suffering in this existence.
I truly never have had any interest in suffering in this existence and never could do no matter what, I simply just don't see existence as a desirable state, I see nothing appealing about being conscious in this futile, unnecessary existence at all, I just don't see any point, benefit or value to existing rather existence is always a burden to me and it's a burden that just causes me to suffer. I suffer from the fact that I exist and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death as I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every way possible, I just wish to be non-existent, permanent non-existence where all is forgotten about truly is all I could ever hope for.

I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what and I just see so much cruelty in how the option of painless death is denied even know I'd never wish for existence and all of this was forced in the first place, this existence there was never a need for was imposed so I should have the option to painlessly free myself from it, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just hope for nothingness. I just wish and hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is gone for me, I just find it so burdensome to simply exist and what I see as the true problem is existence itself, nothing would make me wish for existence rather it just feels like a mistake to me, more than anything I wish I was never forced to exist at all and it just terrifies me how a human can exist for so long, it terrifies me how the suffering can continue for so much longer in this existence I've never had any interest in, in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

Human existence truly is just pointless unnecessary suffering.
I truly do just see human existence as being pointless, unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's all just so terrible and torturous to me, personally I'd always prefer to die than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence, I only wish for peace from all pointless unnecessary suffering where the burden of existence is no longer my problem. Existence truly does just feel like the most cruel, terrible tragic mistake to me and I only hope to painlessly die and never suffer ever again, I'll always see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied for me even know this existence of pointless suffering was imposed in the first place.

I never would have chosen or wished for any of this and I find it so burdensome to exist, to me existence truly is deeply undesirable in every way possible and I'd prefer to die than suffer in this existence, in an existence where there is all this pointless suffering non-existence truly is the only relief for me. I personally just don't see any value to suffering in this existence rather I just wish to cease existing permanently, I only wish for true eternal peace from an existence that only ever caused me to suffer and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, it's tiredness that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me and bring me peace from. I could personally never see any benefit and value to suffering so unnecessarily in this existence just waiting to die anyway rather I just want to painlessly die and forget about it all, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering just continues with me trapped in this existence I never would have chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring non-existence to unnecessary suffering.
No matter what I truly would always prefer non-existence to all the unnecessary suffering and cruelty this existence causes, to me existence truly is an abomination that just causes harm until death takes away all anyway, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all with me forced to suffer all for the sake of it. To me existence truly does feel like nothing but suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I suffer just from being conscious and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the terrible, torturous burden of existence but rather I just wish for non-existence.

I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I never would have chose just to be tortured by old age and die anyway, ceasing to exist is the way for me to escape from and prevent suffering in this existence I never would have chose in the first place and I suffer simply from existing, I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway and to suffer in this existence will always be deeply undesirable to me in every way possible. I just see existence as causing suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for but of course what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, I see existence as the problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings, nothing would make me wish for the terrible suffering this existence causes rather I only wish and hope for nothingness where all is finally gone and forgotten.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as an abomination.
No matter what I truly will always see existence as an abomination and it's one that just causes endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so terrible to me, nothing could ever make me wish for all the suffering this existence causes and brings. I'll always see existence as a mistake that just causes nothing but harm until death takes away all anyway, I just see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied even know existence truly is an abomination that was forced in the first place bringing so much pain as a result.

I'll always prefer to die than suffer in this torturous, painful existence I saw as just being suffering all for the sake of it, to me existence itself will always be the ultimate problem no matter what as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings and without existence I cannot suffer in any way. There are no disadvantages to being permanently unaware and unconscious of the abomination of existence yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the agony and torture of existing can get, for me non-existence really is the only ideal state, I've always wished to die but more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed at all, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this futile unnecessary existence that just brings pain. The thought of suffering until old age is horrific to me, I'd rather always die to escape from pointless suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway, only non-existence can bring me peace from the terrible, torturous abomination of existence and the peace of non-existence is all I'll hope for no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Fear of suffering way more unbearably.
In this terrible, torturous existence where there's all this endless suffering I truly do fear suffering way more unbearably, it's so horrific to me how there's no limit as to how unbearably one can suffer in this existence I always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake, no matter what existence will always be an abomination to me and it's one that just causes so much pain, cruelty and suffering and it can easily get so much more unbearable at any moment just for one to be tortured by old age and die anyway if they suffer for that long. And what is so incredibly cruel and horrifying to me is how trying to permanently escape from all suffering can go wrong and lead to way worse torture as a result, it's just terrifying, I'll certainly only be unable to suffer once I no longer exist.

I'll suffer as long as I'm unfortunate enough to be enslaved in this existence, it's just so terrible to me how this existence was even imposed at all even know there was never a need for any of this, existence to me is the most harmful futile imposition that just causes one to suffer all for the sake of it. To be conscious of this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts is something so painful to me, I'd never wish to be conscious of any of this at all and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to be gone, I just wish for the peace of non-existence to save me from all future torture and suffering in an existence where one is just waiting for death anyway, I'll always prefer to cease existing than suffer no matter what, all I wish is for non-existence to bring me the peace I've always wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep is the only relief for me.
No matter what eternal sleep truly is all that can bring me any relief, all I wish and hope for is permanent relief from the terrible, torturous unnecessary burden of human existence, I just wish to be non-existent, I just wish to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be enslaved in this existence I never would have chose that I just saw as causing nothing but suffering and I suffer simply from existing, no matter what I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all.

I just want nothingness instead, eternal sleep truly is the only relief for me as after all only then am I safe from all the cruelty and suffering of existing, only then is this existence I was burdened with no longer my problem, in an existence so cruel and torturous all I hope and wish for is to sleep eternally, for me ceasing to exist would be the solution to suffering, it'd solve everything for me in an existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway and I suffer so much from waiting. I just wish to fall asleep permanently and it's all I'll wish for, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, what appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that it's permanent and if I'm gone then this existence is no longer my problem, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist, I just want to painlessly cease existing and never exist ever again, it just feels so cruel to me how I cannot just fall asleep eternally to save myself from suffering, I just wish for permanent peace from this existence that more than anything I wish was never imposed at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wishing for the permanency of non-existence.
All I wish and hope for is the permanency of non-existence, I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, what appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that it's permanent and if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, to me only eternal dreamless sleep where this cruel, torturous existence is all finally forgotten about could ever be desirable. I just wish to painlessly cease existing in peace and finally forget about it all, I'd never wish for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence but rather I just hope for nothingness.

I've personally only ever wished to not exist, it's all that's appealed to me, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering in this dreadful unnecessary existence just continues, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking again as I just wish to permanently cease existing. I'd never wish for this existence that was so harmfully imposed in the first place and I'll always see existence as the most cruel, harmful imposition, I'd personally never wish for existence rather I just wish to permanently cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, I just wish for the permanency of eternal, dreamless sleep. I wish to be non-existent, I wish to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering in any way and to me existence truly does just feel like nothing but suffering, I'll always see existence as the most terrible, tragic mistake that just causes so much harm until death takes away all anyway, to not exist truly is all I see as desirable and could ever be no matter what as what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself after all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer from the fact that I exist.
I truly do suffer from the fact that I exist and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, nothing could ever make me wish for the suffering in this terrible, torturous existence rather existence just feels like the most terrible tragedy to me, it feels like a tragedy that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering and existing will always feel like only suffering to me.

I suffer from the fact I exist and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, no matter what nothing could ever make me wish for the suffering this harmful existence so tragically causes rather I just want to painlessly die and forget about it all, I only hope and wish for the peace of never suffering ever again where all is gone and forgotten, I suffer from existing as I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible and it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist could ever bring me relief from. What appeals to me about death is that it's permanent and if I'm gone then this existence is no longer my problem, I just want to never suffer ever again, I've suffered for so long and I'm always so tired of it, it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, no matter what nothing could make me wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake. There's just so much suffering in existing, it's all just so terrible and dreadful to me, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything rather all I hope is for this existence to no longer be my problem, I just wish to forget about this existence I saw as causing nothing but harm.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always feel so tired of suffering in this existence.
I truly do always feel so tired of suffering in this futile, cruel existence and I always will do no matter what, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I only hope for the peace that only permanent non-existence can bring me, I'd always prefer to die than be enslaved in this existence suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to cease existing anyway.

I've always felt so tired and the tiredness I feel is such that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me, non-existence truly is all I see as desirable but more than anything I wish I never suffered, I wish I never became conscious in this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as so unnecessary in the first place, I'd never wish to suffer and my suffering is such that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me. I only wish and hope for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally gone and forgotten, I'll always find it such a terrible tragedy to have to suffer in this existence in the first place and existence to me feels like nothing but suffering. I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I find it so dreadful to exist and I suffer simply from existing, my wish to die is a result of existence and I always feel so tired of it all, I just hope to painlessly cease existing in peace, I just hope for the relief of non-existence where this existence is finally no longer my problem but of course all the suffering just continues instead and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I'll hope for.
It truly is all I'll hope for, it's all I have done and could ever do no matter what, under no circumstances would I wish to be enslaved in this existence just waiting to die anyway suffering all for the sake of it and human existence truly does just feel like enslavement to me as after all it was something that was so harmfully forced and I cannot just have the option to painlessly free myself from it in peace. Non-existence truly would solve everything for me in this existence I never would have chose in the first place, in fact for me it'd be the solution for suffering in this existence that just causes endless amounts of suffering until death takes away all anyway, non-existence truly is all I personally see as desirable and could ever do no matter what.

I just want to never suffer ever again with this existence all gone and forgotten about for me, I just wish for true eternal peace from an existence that I saw as causing nothing but harm in any way, in an existence where there is all this endless suffering non-existence truly is all that could appeal to me, I just want to painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course I continue to suffer in this existence I was never meant for that I never would have chose, as long as I exist I truly will just hope to be gone. I only ever hope for permanent relief from an existence that just caused me to suffer, in general I just have no interest in existing, I find it a burden to exist and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all which is why non-existence truly is all I hope for, it's the only relief for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Finding existence to be deeply undesirable.
No matter what I truly will always find existing to be deeply undesirable, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and I'd never wish to exist, I find it such a torturous futile burden to be conscious in this existence at all, I just don't find existence to be a desirable state and instead I just wish to be non-existent, I wish I never suffered at all more than anything. I just don't see anything appealing about being burdened with this existence rather I just want to painlessly die and never suffer again, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief, it's all I'll wish for, it's all I'll hope for, nothing would make me wish for the suffering this existence causes and the way I see it existence truly does just cause harm.

It causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for at all and I just don't have any interest in this as well, I could never have any interest in just waiting to die in this deeply undesirable existence rather I just want to fall asleep eternally, only eternal sleep has ever appealed to me, only dreamless, eternal sleep can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all without existence I cannot suffer in any way. I only hope for true permanent peace from this deeply undesirable existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, nothing could ever make me wish for existence and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to be gone, I just want to never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wishing for non-existence to save me from all pointless suffering.
I truly do only wish and hope for non-existence to save me from all pointless suffering, I just want to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, only in non-existence will this painful, torturous existence no longer be my problem with all finally forgotten about instead, no matter what nothing could ever make me wish to be conscious in this existence, I'd never wish to exist at all rather I just hope for nothingness.

I just wish for all to finally be gone for me but of course the suffering just continues in this existence I never would have chosen that I was never meant for, I only hope to never exist ever again which is why it feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing in peace. I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just wish for the eternity of non-existence, I wish to cease existing to save myself from all future unnecessary suffering in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, only eternal sleep appeals to me. I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again where I can finally forget about this existence, all I see as desirable is being permanently unconscious where nothing can concern me, non-existence truly is all I've hoped for and could ever do no matter what. As long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for, nothing under any circumstances would make me wish to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing to exist.
No matter what I truly would never wish to exist, I'd always prefer to permanently cease existing, all I wish for is to be non-existent but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I was never forced into this torturous, unnecessary existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake, to me human existence truly just is pointless suffering all for the sake of it and I'd never wish for any of it, I just want nothingness instead.

I only hope and wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, to me existence truly is just an abomination that just causes so much harm and suffering all for the sake of it, existence just causes problems there was never a need for, to me existing truly is only suffering and I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence in every way possible, nothing would make me wish for any of the suffering this existence causes and brings rather I just want to painlessly die in peace. I'd prefer peace over the pointless, unnecessary suffering of human existence, the fact that I was forced into existence truly is a tragedy to me, I see existence as the most dreadful, cruel imposition that just causes and brings so much suffering until death takes away all anyway, permanently ceasing to exist and never suffering ever again truly is all I see as ideal but of course true perfection to me could only lie in never existing at all, nothing under any circumstances would make me wish to exist, I'd always prefer to die than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I never would have wished for and never would do.

 

[FuneralCry]

There truly is so much cruelty in existing.
There really is which truly is so terrible and dreadful to me, nothing under any circumstances would make me wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing rather I just hope and wish for nothingness, to me existence truly is an abomination that just causes harm, I'd never wish to exist no matter what. I'll always just see existence as an terrible tragic mistake that just tortures existing beings until death takes away all anyway and to painlessly die and never suffer ever again truly is all I hope for, I just want all to be gone for me, I'd never wish for the burden of being conscious in this cruel, futile existence destined to decay and die anyway.

To me existing truly just is waiting to die, I find it so dreadful how this existence was even imposed at all and I was forced into this reality where there is all this endless cruelty, existence truly is so harmful to me and the amount of harm it causes truly is immense, it's all just so cruel and what is so horrible is how it can easily get way more unbearable at any moment just for one to be tortured by old age if they suffer for that long and just die anyway. For me personally death truly is all I hope for, for me ceasing to exist would solve everything it's my solution for the cruelty of existing, ceasing to exist would solve everything for me as it removes the source of all suffering in the first place and to never suffer ever again is all I hope for, I'd never wish for the pain of existing, I'd never wish to exist in this reality, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish to disappear.
I personally just wish and hope to disappear from this existence, I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, I just want this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake to be all gone and forgotten about for me, I'd always prefer to cease existing but more than anything I wish I never suffered, I wish I never became conscious in this existence at all, I wish I could erase my existence so finally I can be at peace, I wish to disappear as I truly was never meant for the terrible, unnecessary burden of human existence, death is always preferable for me.

Only non-existence can bring me peace from the harmful, unnecessary tragedy of existence that just caused suffering all for the sake of it, being able to erase my existence truly would solve everything for me, it'd solve all problems in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, being able to disappear from this existence truly would bring me so much peace, in fact it's the only peace for me, all I wish and hope is to never suffer ever again. I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I'll always find it so dreadful to be enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts just waiting to die anyway, permanent non-existence truly is the only peace for me, it's all that could ever bring me any peace from the abomination of existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to disappear, I just hope and wish for the absence of existence where there is no more pain and no more suffering, existence itself will always be the ultimate problem for me no matter what, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

It'd be a relief to painlessly cease existing.
For me it truly would be a relief to painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again as after all it isn't like I could ever suffer from ceasing to exist, non-existence is the only ideal state for me where the burden of existence is all forgotten about and no longer my problem, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence no matter what, I find existence to be such a cruel, futile imposition that is something deeply undesirable to me that I see as just causing nothing but suffering until death takes away all anyway. For me it'd be such a relief to have the option to painlessly cease existing as it terrifies me how a human can exist for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel.

I'd never wish for the suffering and torment of human existence no matter what rather I just want all to be gone for me, I wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering, it's just so horrible how I cannot just have the option to simply die in peace as permanently ceasing to exist truly is the only relief for me, it's all I hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again and I'd be relieved to be permanently unconscious and permanently unable to suffer, the thought of being enslaved in this existence suffering until the torture of old age is horrific to me, I'd never wish for any of this suffering but rather I only wish for the relief of never suffering ever again, I just wish for peace from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Having no interest in unnecessary suffering.
I've personally never had any interest in the unnecessary suffering this existence so tragically causes rather I just want to painlessly cease existing instead, I just wish to be non-existent, I just wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering in any way, in this existence where there is all this cruelty and torment death truly is the only peace for me.

To me existing truly does feel like nothing but suffering and I just don't wish to suffer in any way, I see no benefit to suffering and no value to it as well, rather I just want to painlessly cease existing and forget about it all, I only hope and wish for the peace of never existing ever again, I could never see anything desirable about existing rather I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible. I've never wished for existence and nothing would ever make me wish to suffer in this existence rather I just hope to painlessly cease existing in peace and forget about it all, I could personally never see any value to being conscious in this existence rather I just hope for nothingness, I just wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering. I'd always prefer to not exist as only then am I permanently incapable of suffering but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this torturous, unnecessary existence, existence itself will always be the ultimate problem to me and I just don't have any interest in suffering in it either, I just hope for this existence to be no longer my problem, I'd prefer peace over unnecessary suffering and I suffer from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being conscious.
I truly am always so tired of being conscious, nothing under any circumstances would make me wish to be conscious of this terrible, torturous existence, I'll always find it a burden to exist no matter what and it's a burden I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake. To me existence truly is pointless unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just hope and wish for permanent nothingness instead, I find it tiring to simply exist and it's tiredness that only dreamless eternal sleep can take away for me.

I just wish to be permanently unconscious where this existence is finally all gone and forgotten about, I just wish for this existence to no longer be my problem but of course the suffering just continues with me enslaved in this existence just waiting to die anyway, more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed as it'd save me from all this suffering and there's just so much suffering in existing. I suffer just from being burdened with this existence and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, permanent non-existence truly is all that's desirable to me, I find it deeply undesirable to exist no matter what. As long as I exist I'll always and only wish for non-existence, to permanently cease existing and never exist ever again truly is all I could ever wish for, simply just being conscious is such a tiring futile burden that I find deeply undesirable in every way, as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and freedom I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always hoping to sleep eternally.
As long as I exist I truly will only ever hope to sleep eternally, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone for me and this torturous, unnecessary existence is finally no longer my concern. Nothing under any circumstances would make me wish to suffer in this existence that always felt like the most cruel, terrible mistake rather I just hope to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, I only hope for nothingness, in an existence where there is all this suffering all for the sake of it permanently ceasing to exist truly is all I see as desirable, I just want all to be gone for me with no more pain, no more suffering.

I'd never wish to be conscious burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it rather I just hope for non-existence, I just want all to be finally gone for me, eternal sleep truly is all I've hoped for and could ever do, I was never meant to suffer in this existence and I never should have suffered at all, non-existence truly is always preferable to me no matter what and is all that can personally bring me peace from this existence I was never meant for and never would have chosen. I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just fall asleep eternally and never suffer ever again as to be permanently free from this existence is all I could ever hope for, I just want to finally forget about this existence I saw as causing nothing but suffering and the suffering of existing truly is endless, I'm always so tired of being trapped in this existence I never would have chose and never would have meant for and it's tiredness that only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me peace from.

 

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Always so tired of being enslaved in this existence.
I truly am always so tired of being enslaved in this existence suffering so unnecessarily all for the sake of it, as long as I exist I truly will wish and hope to never suffer ever again, I suffer just from being enslaved in this existence and to me human existence truly is enslavement as after all it was forced in the first place and I cannot just have the option to simply die in peace to finally escape from this cruel, futile existence that was so tragically imposed causing so much suffering as a result.

Non-existence truly is all that's desirable to me as only then is the torturous unnecessary burden of existence finally no longer my problem with all gone and forgotten about instead, I find it so burdensome to exist, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just want to permanently cease existing, only being permanently unconscious is ideal to me. I'll always see existence as a burden that just causes suffering and harm until death takes away all anyway and I suffer simply from existing. I'll suffer as long as I exist, I see existence as the most dreadful, terrible mistake and the fact that this existence was imposed even know there really was never a need for existence truly is a tragedy to me, only death can bring me peace from the suffering this existence causes, as long as I exist I'll always feel so tired and it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me, nothing under any circumstances would make me wish to be enslaved in this existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it, I wish to never suffer ever again.

 

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Existence itself will always be the problem to me.
No matter what I truly will always see existence itself as the problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty, there's no suffering in what I see as the ideal state which is non-existence and to be permanently incapable of suffering and incapable of feeling any pain truly is all that's ideal to me. I'll always see existence as an abomination that just causes so much harm, existence just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for and to cease existing would solve everything for me as it removes what I see as the ultimate problem, there are no disadvantages to being eternally unconscious, for me eternal dreamless sleep truly is always preferable to being burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as a burden to exist.

I wish to cease existing as I simply don't wish to exist, never have done and never would do, I just want peace instead, I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible, to me existence truly is just pointless suffering and cruelty and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing in peace even know existence itself is what I ultimately see as the problem. Nothing would make me wish for existence and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, just being conscious is the most futile, torturous unnecessary burden to me, it's something I see no point, benefit and value to rather I see existence as the problem that only eternal nothingness can bring me relief from and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to be gone, I only wish to never exist ever again.

 

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Existence is just so harmful.
It truly is so harmful which is why I only hope and wish for death, I see existence as being nothing more than an terrible, torturous unnecessary harm that has only caused endless amounts of suffering and the suffering this existence causes is beyond comprehension. I see it as such a dreadful burden to be conscious in this existence at all capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, nothing would make me wish to be conscious in this horrific reality destined to decay and die anyway, there truly is so much suffering in existing.

In fact I see existence as causing nothing but harm, for me ceasing to exist truly is the only peace, it's all that can bring me any relief from this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake, to me human existence truly is just suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's all just so terrible and cruel to me, I'd always prefer to die than be enslaved in this harmful existence there was never a need for that just caused so much suffering all for the sake of it. Nothing would make me wish to be conscious in this existence at all under any circumstance rather I just hope and wish for nothingness, I wish for this cruel, futile harmful existence to be finally all forgotten about with me permanently unable to suffer and permanently unable to be harmed in any way, non-existence truly is the only peace for me, I'll always see existence as an abomination no matter what, existence itself is the ultimate problem to me as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering, I'd never wish for the pain of existing.

 

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Wish I never suffered in this existence.
More than anything I truly wish I never suffered in this torturous, unnecessary existence, I see it as something so terrible and dreadful to be forced into this existence suffering all for the sake of it capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, existence to me truly is the most cruel, harmful imposition that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering until death takes away all anyway, I never should have existed, I wish I was never forced to suffer, I wish I never became conscious of any of this and I'd never wish to no matter what.

I see it as a burden to have to exist at all and it's a burden that only permanent non-existence can bring me peace from, nothing would make me wish for the suffering this existence so tragically causes and I'll always find it so undesirable to exist. I see nothing desirable about being forced into this existence of pointless suffering just waiting to die anyway, to me human existence truly is an abomination and what I find so terrible is how I cannot just have the option to simply die in peace even know this existence was imposed in the first place and I never would have chosen any of this with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know it's all so unnecessary to me and just leads to death anyway. Non-existence truly is all that can bring me peace from this existence that was tragically imposed and I'll always see it as a tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all, human existence truly does just feel like a mistake to me, it's a terrible tragedy with that just causes suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

 

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Just wanting peace from all pointless suffering.
As long as I exist I'll only hope and wish for peace from all pointless suffering, I only hope to never exist ever again with this cruel, futile existence all finally forgotten about, I'll personally only be at peace once I no longer exist, only death can bring me peace from this torturous, undesirable existence I never would have chosen. As long as I've existed I've only ever hoped for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering, I just wish to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering continues in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake.

I truly was never meant for any of this and I'd never wish to be conscious of any of it at all, I just wish and hope for non-existence instead, I just want non-existence to solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for the peace of never suffering ever again, for me peace could never lie in the terrible burden of human existence where there's no limit as to how much one can suffer. Nothing would ever make me wish for all the cruelty and suffering this existence causes rather I just wish for nothingness, I wish for this existence to no longer be my problem but of course all the suffering just continues instead, I see so much cruelty in how I simply cannot just have the option to painlessly die even know this existence was forced in the first place, I'd never wish for the cruel, harmful imposition of existence that just causes so much suffering rather I just wish for some peace instead and for me peace could only ever lie in never existing again.

 

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Suffer so much from being trapped in this existence.
I truly do suffer so much from being trapped in this cruel, futile existence, I suffer from how I was burdened with this existence in the first place without the option to just painlessly die in peace and never exist ever again, it's just so dreadful to me how this torturous unnecessary existence was imposed yet suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what.

What is so horrific to me is how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer as long as they are trapped in this existence, it's horrifying to me how trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse torture and suffering and I always suffer so much from existing, to me existing truly does feel like nothing but suffering. I'll suffer as long as I'm conscious burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as a burden to exist no matter what and it's a burden that only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, I'm always so tired of suffering in this torturous and futile existence and I'll feel tired until I finally cease existing, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep where all suffering is gone and finally I can be at peace. The fact that painless death is denied is just so incredibly cruel to me, there's just so much cruelty in this existence I always saw as a mistake, nothing under any circumstances would make me wish for the burden of human existence and I suffer so much from being trapped in it, as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace, only non-existence can bring me the relief from the terrible tragedy of existence I search for.

 

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Wishing for the permanency of non-existence.
The fact that non-existence is permanent and that if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way truly is exactly why it appeals to me, all I wish and hope for is the peace of an dreamless eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten about, I wish to permanently cease existing and never exist ever again, for me peace truly could only lie in being permanently unconscious where there is no more pain, no more suffering, I only hope for the absence of existence where all is finally gone.

I wish for this torturous, undesirable existence to no longer be my problem, no matter what I'll see existence as deeply undesirable in every way, I'd never wish to exist, all that's desirable to me is the permanency of non-existence where I can finally forget about this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake, existing to me truly is nothing but suffering and I suffer just from existing, it's suffering that only ceasing to exist can take away for me. I'll only be at peace once I finally cease existing, peace for me could only ever lie in being permanently relieved from the burden of existence and I'll always find it a burden to exist, existence is a burden that just causes harm and suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all. It's all just so dreadful and painful to me, I'd never wish to be conscious in this futile existence rather I just wish and hope for permanent nothingness instead, I just want all to be gone for me, I only hope to never suffer in this existence ever again but of course all the suffering continues with me trapped in this existence I never would have chosen.

 

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Preferring death over suffering in this existence.
No matter what I truly would always prefer to die over suffering for the sake of it in this torturous, unnecessary existence, I only hope to never exist ever again, non-existence is peace for me from the suffering and cruelty of existence, in general I only see it as desirable to not exist, I find it a burden to exist and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all. To me existence truly does just feel like a mistake and it's one that just causes nothing but harm, I'd personally never wish to exist but rather I just wish for nothingness, I wish for the relief that only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me, I truly was never meant to exist and I never should have suffered at all.

I find it so tiring to simply exist, to me only non-existence is ideal, I find existence to be completely undesirable in every way, I could never see it as a desirable state rather it's something I just wish for eternal peace from, personally I'd be relieved to never exist ever again, I just wish to be permanently unconscious where this existence is no longer my problem. Non-existence truly is all I hope for no matter what as I find it painful to be conscious in this existence, I'm so tired of suffering, I just wish for nothingness instead, I only hope to be free from this horrific world, what appeals to me about being dead is that it's permanent and nothing can concern me if I'm gone, I'll always prefer peace to pointless suffering in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tormented by old age, as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again.

 

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Wanting to cease existing because existence is an abomination.
The fact that existence is such an abomination that just causes harm and suffering truly does make me wish to cease existing even more, I'd never wish to suffer in this torturous unnecessary existence that I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake, I personally just wish for peace from the abomination of existence. To me existence truly is the problem, it's something that just causes so much pain until death takes away all anyway and I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing than be enslaved in this existence just waiting to die anyway capable of suffering to unlimited amounts.

I'll always see existing as being nothing but suffering and I find it to be such a tragedy how I was burdened with this existence at all forced to be conscious, forced to suffer all for the sake of it, nothing under any circumstances would make me wish for the suffering of existing, I just don't want to suffer at all, I see it as something so terrible having to exist, to me existence itself really is the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering. It's the ultimate cause of all that tortures existing beings, in this existence where there is all this dreadful cruelty and suffering non-existence truly is the only peace for me, only in non-existence will I be safe from all suffering and harm, only non-existence can bring me the relief and safety from suffering I search for, existence will always feel like a mistake to me, I find it so deeply undesirable to be conscious in this existence and I'd never wish for it, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me instead.

 

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Never wishing to be conscious of this existence.
No matter what I'd never wish to be conscious of this existence, I only hope to be permanently unconscious permanently unable to suffer, I only wish for this torturous, futile existence to be no longer my concern and I know I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence. To me existing truly is just pointless unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it and I'd never wish to suffer at all rather I just hope for eternal nothingness instead, I only wish for peace from an existence I saw as causing nothing but harm I only wish for permanent freedom and relief from all suffering in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, non-existence truly is all that appeals to me, it's the only desirable state to me.

To be conscious at all just feels like the most terrible, cruel tragedy that just causes so much suffering for the sake of it and to me existing just feels like nothing but suffering, I'd always prefer to cease existing than suffer in this existence there was never a need for, I find it such a futile, torturous burden to be conscious at all, and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence. I'll only hope for permanent relief from an existence I saw as causing nothing but pain, to me existence will always feel like a mistake and what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, it's something I'd never wish for but rather it's something I just wish for peace and freedom from and peace for me could only lie in non-existence I only hope to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep.

 

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Only hoping to never suffer ever again.
As long as I exist I truly will only hope to never suffer ever again, I just wish for permanent peace from this existence I always saw as the most cruel, unnecessary terrible mistake, I only hope and wish for the absence of existence where all is finally forgotten about but of course I'm trapped in this existence of pointless suffering just waiting to die anyway just hoping and wishing to be gone, to me existing truly is just suffering all for the sake of it.

I suffer simply from existing and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, human existence truly does just feel like cruelty and suffering to me, there's just so much suffering in this torturous, pointless existence, for me personally permanent non-existence truly is the only peace and it's all I could ever hope for. I only hope to never suffer ever again, I find it such a burden to exist and it's a burden so deeply undesirable in every way to me, nothing under any circumstances would make me wish for the burden of existence rather I just want all to be gone for me. I just wish to be permanently unconscious with this existence finally no longer my problem, for me non-existence truly is all I could ever wish for, only never existing ever agsin is desirable but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all the fact that this existence was even imposed is the most terrible tragedy to me. I only hope to never suffer ever again as what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and I'll suffer and wish to be gone as long as I exist, I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence so tragically causes.