Story SN Survival One Year Later- Slow and Painful

[SectOfValtiel]

I'm not saying I don't believe op, but what I am saying is that I always trust my gut instinct over anything. Anytime that I haven't trusted it I always regretted it.

Whatever happens OP I wish you the best.

and thats the complete opposite of my experiences
more often than not ive regretted acting on it impulsively, ive lost friends and even arguably the love of my life that way
idk if mines just inherently broken or what
but id rather observe and base my decisions off what i can see, rather than what i feel
as much as i can at least

thats just my opinion
if your gut works for you, hell yeah, believe in it all you can
it just does not for me

 

[👁️👃👁️]

and thats the complete opposite of my experiences
more often than not ive regretted acting on it impulsively, ive lost friends and even arguably the love of my life that way
idk if mines just inherently broken or what
but id rather observe and base my decisions off what i can see, rather than what i feel
as much as i can at least

thats just my opinion
if your gut works for you, hell yeah, believe in it all you can
it just does not for me

I understand my friend. I'm not very knowledgeable when it comes to intuition and ego but sometimes it's easy for us to listen to our ego thinking that it is our intuition. I'm sorry you had to go through those experiences.

 

[JJJune]

I'm done here and with this site for good now. Yall can make your own assumptions and conclusions about me and my story. I know I am telling the truth and I feel crazy like I'm being gaslit or something. Some responses I'm getting here questioning my validity ultimately left me triggered and genuinely pains and offends me. It seems that staying here will only worsen my mental health now. So thanks for that. To the people that empathize with me, I appreciate you.

Done here.

 

[Someone123]

I'm not trying to be an asshole, it's just that every day there seems to be some post about SN that is very dramatic and differs from most other accounts and then everyone comes out of the woodwork to post on how scared shitless it made them. Maybe every single thing OP says is true, but I think it's beneficial to remind everyone that the pph gave SN a score of 7 for peacefulness for a reason and they really should decide for themselves and not let 1 random case that can't be proven or disproven scare them out of what very well could be a peaceful exit for them.

There was another recent account about brain damage from sn. I think we should let people share their experiences and not go to saying they are lying because we don't like the results they have gotten. Many methods leave damage if they are unsuccessful, and we are learning more bout ths with sn. I don't think she is lying, she is trying to explain the nest she can what happened.

 

[👁️👃👁️]

I'm done here and with this site for good now. Yall can make your own assumptions and conclusions about me and my story. I know I am telling the truth and I feel crazy like I'm being gaslit or something. Some responses I'm getting here questioning my validity ultimately left me triggered and genuinely pains and offends me. It seems that staying here will only worsen my mental health now. So thanks for that. To the people that empathize with me, I appreciate you.

Done here.

I have a question. Do you think you can truly be happy if you're surrounded by miserable people?

 

[Jadzia]

There was another recent account about brain damage from sn. I think we should let people share their experiences and not go to saying they are lying because we don't like the results they have gotten. Many methods leave damage if they are unsuccessful, and we are learning more bout ths with sn. I don't think she is lying, she is trying to explain the nest she can what happened.

The brain damage for the OP from this thread was because they banged their head, not from the SN

 

[👁️👃👁️]

The brain damage from the OP from this thread was because they banged their head, not from the SN

There was another thread. Although there was no evidence provided. Only evidence up to date I believe was in article where ab older gentleman got some sort of rare brain damage that people usually recover and heal from in around a two years time. There was another one that showed brain damage I believe, but she was already dead.

 

[aforestfire]

I'm done here and with this site for good now. Yall can make your own assumptions and conclusions about me and my story. I know I am telling the truth and I feel crazy like I'm being gaslit or something. Some responses I'm getting here questioning my validity ultimately left me triggered and genuinely pains and offends me. It seems that staying here will only worsen my mental health now. So thanks for that. To the people that empathize with me, I appreciate you.

Done here.

well, if it's true, i wish you the best and that you have the best recovery. glad to hear that you're doing better, and i'm sorry that being here worsen your mental state.
leaving must be better anyways, and again: i wish you the best.

 

[SamTam33]

I'm done here and with this site for good now. Yall can make your own assumptions and conclusions about me and my story. I know I am telling the truth and I feel crazy like I'm being gaslit or something. Some responses I'm getting here questioning my validity ultimately left me triggered and genuinely pains and offends me. It seems that staying here will only worsen my mental health now. So thanks for that. To the people that empathize with me, I appreciate you.

Done here.

It's the internet. We don't know who's telling the truth.

But if this is your story and your truth, why does it matter if not every single person believes you?

Talk to the ones who do.

 

[Cathy Ames]

I have a question. Do you think you can truly be happy if you're surrounded by miserable people?

I think for some people, yes, it is possible. But for most people it is not. What do you think?

 

[Dot]

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[Nowako]

The brain damage for the OP from this thread was because they banged their head, not from the SN

Exactly. At least there is a good chance that this is what made the whole experience so awful, not SN.

 

[releasespieces]

Hours is an exaggeration. Mostly just pacing all day. I know that the protocol and injestion wasn't too far apart, but I simply don't remember my exact timing. Maybe an hour at most? But I could not get my hands on benzos or any not over the counter pain relievers so there is also that. I did have a drink for some courage but that was all for "pain".

So you drank alcohol? Pretty sure that isn't recommended as part of the regime.

 

[Jadzia]

So you drank alcohol? Pretty sure that isn't recommended as part of the regime.

I think that could definitely be a reason why it didn't work.

 

[SamTam33]

So you drank alcohol? Pretty sure that isn't recommended as part of the regime.

I've been wondering about this. I read somewhere that the preceeding fast should only include "clear liquids." If that's true, shouldn't vodka or tequila qualify?

If I'm sober and clear-minded, I doubt my ability to drink the SN.

That's just one of the things I struggle with when considering this method.

 

[releasespieces]

I'm not trying to be an asshole, it's just that every day there seems to be some post about SN that is very dramatic and differs from most other accounts and then everyone comes out of the woodwork to post on how scared shitless it made them. Maybe every single thing OP says is true, but I think it's beneficial to remind everyone that the pph gave SN a score of 7 for peacefulness for a reason and they really should decide for themselves and not let 1 random case that can't be proven or disproven scare them out of what very well could be a peaceful exit for them.

Not to mention Stan clearly states that you don't want to be up and moving around when it kicks in. He indicates that you could fall and hurt yourself, you have to do your research and follow the protocol. Not trying to diminish the experience of the OP, I'm sure it was traumatic, but it's really important to follow all of the advice given. Imagine how different the outcome could have been, a lot of issues come from that SI kicking in and people creating their own issues complicating this method of suicide.

 

[Jadzia]

I've been wondering about this. I read somewhere that the preceeding fast should only include "clear liquids." If that's true, shouldn't vodka or tequila qualify?

If I'm sober and clear-minded, I doubt my ability to drink the SN.

That's just one of the things I struggle with when considering this method.

I wouldn't risk drinking alcohol or any kind. Benzos will help with SI if you can get them.

 

[Jarni]

I wouldn't risk drinking alcohol or any kind. Benzos will help with SI if you can get them.

Clear head is also needed to drink a 2d glass in a right time...

 

[Idontmatter]

Keep in mind the op called for help. While the symptoms do seem to be pretty bad for them if they hadn't called for help they probably wouldn't be here right now.

To the op- I'm so sorry for what you went through. I can tell how terrifying it must have been.

 

[y0dha]

Yes OP called for help that's why it failed and they hit their head on the floor which is the reason they had brain injury.

So it doesn't make SN any less working, only claim is that it was painful but in another post in march they claimed it was painless. So it's a bit weird even though they said they got some memory back...

Some people mentionning the alcohol ingested but if you think about it phisiologically alcohol will just improve changed of vomiting, raise the time of asborbtion of the SN cause of the quantity of liquid ingested prior and maybe make you more dizzy and more prone to heart beating faster since alcohol raises heartbeat.

So I don't think the alcohol went in the way of the process that much. I mean it dpends of the quantity ingested of course: If OP ingested lots of liquid it raised too much the absorbtion time which prevented them to pass out fast and maybe that's why they felt all these symptoms.

 

[Idontmatter]

Yes OP called for help that's why it failed and they hit their head on the floor which is the reason they had brain injury.

So it doesn't make SN any less working, only claim is that it was painful but in another post in march they claimed it was painless. So it's a bit weird even though they said they got some memory back...

Some people mentionning the alcohol ingested but if you think about it phisiologically alcohol will just improve changed of vomiting, raise the time of asborbtion of the SN cause of the quantity of liquid ingested prior and maybe make you more dizzy and more prone to heart beating faster since alcohol raises heartbeat.

So I don't think the alcohol went in the way of the process that much. I mean it dpends of the quantity ingested of course: If OP ingested lots of liquid it raised too much the absorbtion time which prevented them to pass out fast and maybe that's why they felt all these symptoms.

I'm wondering if the blood pressure was really high from the anxiety if that might have caused it to take longer to pass out. It could be a stupid thought but I was thinking about it earlier.

 

[Spyware]

I'm a survivor as well. Attempted 2 years ago

I vomited a large portion of SN and the remaining portion of it was too small to kill me quickly enough. I was found. Vomiting was caused by taking my antidepressant as an antiemetic instead of a proper antiemetic (as per Stan's guide). That was a mistake

I'm infinitely grateful I recovered completely to mostly the same state as I was before the attempt. Stan was telling the truth about complete recovery being possible after a failed attempt

 

[Jadzia]

I'm a survivor as well. Attempted 2 years ago

I vomited a large portion of SN and the remaining portion of it was too small to kill me quickly enough. I was found. Vomiting was caused by taking my antidepressant as an antiemetic instead of a proper antiemetic (as per Stan's guide). That was a mistake

I'm infinitely grateful I recovered completely to mostly the same state as I was before the attempt. Stan was telling the truth about complete recovery being possible after a failed attempt

I'm glad you made a full recovery. Did you drink a 2nd glass?

 

[FuneralCry]

What you had to go through sounds like a really horrific experience, it's so terrifying how ctb methods can potentially go wrong and cause such a large amount of suffering to be experienced. I'm sorry that people are being so disrespectful, sadly so many on this site are really not compassionate towards what others go through, it's the unfortunate reality.

 

[Spyware]

Also, absolutely shocked at the million dollar cost of recovery. I'm so sorry, OP

In my case the recovery costed next to nothing (socialist country)

I'm glad you made a full recovery. Did you drink a 2nd glass?

No. I couldn't. My consciousness was practically off at that point. But I actually managed to get to the kitchen, drink some water, then go back and lie down. After taking SN. I guess death can wait when you are extremely thirsty

 

[jessisme]

I'm done here and with this site for good now. Yall can make your own assumptions and conclusions about me and my story. I know I am telling the truth and I feel crazy like I'm being gaslit or something. Some responses I'm getting here questioning my validity ultimately left me triggered and genuinely pains and offends me. It seems that staying here will only worsen my mental health now. So thanks for that. To the people that empathize with me, I appreciate you.

Done here.

I for one believe what you have written here and am so sorry for your horrific experience with SN. It sounds like you have been through an awful lot with it which doesn't surprise me. When you take actions to have your body shut down there are bound to be consequences. The "good news" take away for me here is that you did actually manage to die, you just had to endure enormous suffering before which often accompanies even death by natural circumstances. I was wondering if you could tell me about how long you suffered until the time that you died. Do you have a sense for how long it was? Fifteen minutes? An hour? I know it might be hard to come up with a timeframe under the circumstances but just your best guess would be much appreciated. Thanks so much for sharing your story here with us.

 

[MideonNViscera]

You guys, in fact the entire internet, really need to learn to accept things that challenge your narrative.

 

[Jarni]

Just a reminder, PPeH is very clear on the point of the second glass.

 

[resolutory]

Just a reminder, PPeH is very clear on the point of the second glass.View attachment 102497

Out of curiosity, and I know this is probably a stupid question, but what does it mean 'the procedure should be aborted'? Like, as in, what are you meant to do at that point to abort the procedure after you've already drunk a glass?

 

[Jadzia]

Out of curiosity, and I know this is probably a stupid question, but what does it mean 'the procedure should be aborted'? Like, as in, what are you meant to do at that point to abort the procedure after you've already drunk a glass?

I think it means consider seeking medical help.