Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[k75]

I'm annoyed. I read my post count wrong and thought I was finally almost out of the pink name hell. Turns out 9 comes after 8. Who knew?

 

[departing]

Tired and full of cabin fever. I isolated before the coronavirus but now the isolation is on steroids.

 

[ronnyriggs2]

fuck man

 

[BabyYoda]

Right now, I'm feeling okay. In a few minutes or hours I will not be okay again. It's a never ending cycle.

I kinda expect myself to be happier since classes are cancelled, but this is not some ordinary vacation, it's a fucking pandemic. And I still have my personal issues.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I am frustrated and feel trapped in this nightmare

 

[Halo13]

Sick of my body hurting all the time. Tired of being tired.

 

[snxw]

recently i just feel sick with fear, i dont know what to do im terrified of being alive and all i can think about is suicide, but i feel scared of dying if that makes any sense. im just backed up into a corner and feel ive no choice.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

So tired I can't sleep

 

[departing]

Sleep keeps escaping me. Why is it so hard to escape this nightmare?

 

[Squiddy]

Today I'm feeling neutral. Neither happy nor sad. I just matched with 3 guys on a dating app and I'm pretty happy about it, I just hope they don't stop talking to me like the rest of the guys I've talked to.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Exited! While visiting my stephdads grave, there were trees with 4 nests of baby storks. New life, new beginnings... So beautiful

 

[Myforevercharlie]

God wrecking awful. Why am i such an idiot

 

[FusRohDracarys]

Angry.

 

[Erase.myself]

Fucked. I feel super fucked. Back in Psych hospital for emotionally, and impulsively telling my suicide plan to my therapist. This is prolonging my plans, and my extreme despair I am in. And the dumbshit award goes to me.

 

[Woodnote]

I don't know how much longer I can do this.. I just want it to be over.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Indecisive my mind is clouded i can't see anymore. Forgot to look out for myself, now i can't find me.

 

[Sensei]

I've stopped trying to figure out how I feel. It's just one big, bipolar, chaotic mess.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

Despair, loneliness. I feel like my brain is rotting, and living is so freaking painful. I wish I could just throw in the towel.

 

[Epsilon0]

Headache, fatigue and an intense feeling that I must break free from the prison that I am in. I can't go on like this. I know what I must do, yet I am so, so, so tired that I don't know where to find the strength to do it.

 

[Woodnote]

Why do I cling to false hope..

 

[BabyYoda]

Like
I really want someone to care about me just like in the movies/TV shows
I can't fucking accept my situation right now yesterday Person B asked me if I was okay and I said yes thanks for asking and he said no you're not okay and I thought no I don't want to be interrogated anymore I just want to be listened and heard
I'd rather go hungry than be unloved LIKE SEEEEERIOUSLYYYYYYYYY
My main plan is still ongoing where I'll CTB after graduation if I don't have a partner
I'll wait two years after maximum
Then I'll jump headfirst
WHY would I be here if no one is here to love me like why

 

[Never Free]

Very sad. Why aren't I dead yet?

 

[Woodnote]

Will the pain ever stop..

 

[RayoSinSol]

Lonely. Unsure where to look to find real, good connection. Tired of hearing my roommates blast their music. Ready to not be here anymore, but doubting my ability to follow through with erasing myself.

 

[itsamadworld]

Nervous, lonely, fearing getting older, social media anxiety- I tried to go online dating, but I hid my profile again because I don't want to meet someone who I might regret. That's what sucks with BPD, it's really difficult to handle that....I just don't want to meet potentially critical or unpleasant people...maybe it's better to be alone?

 

[Evermore]

Scared because it's time to go bed and I know all the thoughts I tried to ignore during the day are going to kick in and fuck with me until I eventually cry myself to sleep

 

[mediocre]

Lonely. Feel like having a Big Mac. McDonald's still closed ffs. Sick of quarantine.

 

[Whited Sepulchre]

I should really be doing stuff but how I just want to be sitting.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Hurt i think, im not even sure

 

[moodygrl]

Its morning, sitting on the sofa, reading this forum, sweating slightly, not wanting anything to do. The radio is playing music that annoys me but silence would be worse.
Feeling tense, greasy, disgusting, wanting to smoke all the time. Here and there an impulse tells me to go paint somethig but I dont want to as I would just make a mess and no final product.

so I will just keep sitting here thinking about suicide, and reading your posts.