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Nihil

Nihil

Student
Mar 4, 2019
111


Suicidal ideation is a real pain in the ass sometimes. Even when I don't want it, it sometimes just has a way of being forced into my thoughts. Bleh...
 
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FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,782
utterly beaten
 
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Quinlor

Quinlor

The stranger
Feb 21, 2019
1,058
Lonely
 
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WOODESITY

WOODESITY

Experienced
Mar 15, 2019
217
I'm drunk right now, I'm so ready to ctb but I can't, I'm not alone yet
 
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AhG

AhG

La vie est tout sauf un rêve
Jan 24, 2019
313
Loneliness. I really fucking miss my wife, and my birthday is in a few days, I'm expecting a text from her that I know I won't get.
 
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Jc40

Jc40

Specialist
Mar 3, 2019
354
Feel like void in me but also it could be worse, also better but yeah
 
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IRIYAMA

IRIYAMA

Student
Apr 10, 2018
146
Feel empty, even though I'm surrounded by family. Sad part is I can't open up to them about the ctb thoughts, grateful to have a mate interstate to vent to.
Feel in pain and highly symptomatic, having trouble with mobility and have shocking neuropathy and unpredictable palpitations.
Only constant thoughts are to ctb, can't even do my job satisfactorily, just over it all..

Sorry to rant, hope I didn't bore anyone...
 
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salvation

Yo
Mar 21, 2019
123
I just dont wanna be here anymore
 
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EllaBella

EllaBella

Slightly depraved
Mar 23, 2019
6
Unbearably pathetic. Unfathomably tired.
 
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Quinlor

Quinlor

The stranger
Feb 21, 2019
1,058
Anxious, despaired
 
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CornerE

CornerE

Needs a savior
Mar 12, 2019
103
hopeless
trapped
violated
 
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Redt2go

Redt2go

flower child
Jan 5, 2019
1,643
conflicted, exhausted, trapped, lonely, unhappy, ungrateful, hungry, regretful, simping
 
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Jodes

Jodes

Enlightened
Nov 23, 2018
1,261
conflicted, exhausted, trapped, lonely, unhappy, ungrateful, hungry, regretful, simping
Holy Moly. Makes me really fukcing glad I just feel angry and sore right now. Hungry? Nothing to eat??
 
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Redt2go

Redt2go

flower child
Jan 5, 2019
1,643
Holy Moly. Makes me really fukcing glad I just feel angry and sore right now. Hungry? Nothing to eat??
lol no I've got food I was just taking a break from eating
 
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Jodes

Jodes

Enlightened
Nov 23, 2018
1,261
lol no I've got food I was just taking a break from eating
That method wouldn't be my first choice.

Ugh.. feeling sad & lonely. Fickle moods
 
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Redt2go

Redt2go

flower child
Jan 5, 2019
1,643
That method wouldn't be my first choice.

Ugh.. feeling sad & lonely. Fickle moods
mine either, wasn't going vsed, I just wasn't eating
 
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TheRiverStyz

TheRiverStyz

Yes, that’s a typo.
Jan 16, 2019
100
Restless.
 
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FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,782
rudderless
 
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WOODESITY

WOODESITY

Experienced
Mar 15, 2019
217
Unmotivated and angry
 
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silentsinger

silentsinger

Experienced
Mar 1, 2019
261
disgrace
 
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maraexhausted

maraexhausted

Member
Apr 1, 2019
12
so exhausted. I feel like nothing can help me, i don't have hopeness on the future and the life. Because i have everything, like everybody says, i have health, family, friends, but i'm completely not able to feel happy and alive. And the same time i'm afraid to take my life. I'm so boring and ingenius.
 
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Jc40

Jc40

Specialist
Mar 3, 2019
354
Numb
 
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limelight

limelight

I'm probably high while writing this crap.
Mar 15, 2019
75
Maybe a little bit less alone in this world after reading you guys' comments in here
 
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EddieAllenPoe

EddieAllenPoe

Specialist
Mar 19, 2019
304
F-bl-uh. UGGGGGH. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK! BULLSHIT! This is... FUCKING BULLSHIT!

As you can see, I normally have to stop and think before I describe how I'm feeling because I'd confuse and scare the shit out of most people.
 
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Memento Mori

Memento Mori

shambling garbage
Jan 24, 2019
573
i want to fucking sleep or go on a psychedelic trip. anything else then feeling awake and pissed of life
cant find music that calms me...everything sucks. even just the sound of rain and lightning
maybe some random nature documentation will work
 
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Ghastly

Member
Dec 15, 2018
57
I feel empty. Like if you slice me open, you'll find nothing there. Just black emptiness. I go through life mechanically, and it's like every emotion I feel is fake. Like they're really just at the surface. Beneath, there's nothing. It's weird. I know what to feel but I don't feel it.

I'm hurting and because of that, I end up hurting others. I don't want to cause pain anymore. I don't want to feel pain anymore. I just want it all to end.
I should be doing so many things yet I'm in bed early drinking wine and reading with bengay all over my body cause I like the tingling
 
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