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middlelord

middlelord

Morbidly Avoidant
Oct 22, 2023
24
I'm still here for my mom. I can't imagine what's going to happen with my mom if I CTB.
 
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societyhater

societyhater

Member
Jan 22, 2025
9
Hope
 
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brokeandbroken

Enlightened
Apr 18, 2023
1,134
To be honest i have absolutely nobody to live for. No family, no friends, nobody. I'm about as alone as a human can be. Just someone robbed of everything including any opportunities and just outcasted....
 
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blackpillhopeless

Member
Nov 30, 2024
34
The hope that I may potentially find a romantic partner one day.
 
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APeacefulPlace

APeacefulPlace

Ape
Dec 2, 2024
298
The only person I'm living for right now is my best friend, haven't told her about my plans, and feels nearly impossible to share. Not even sure what to say exactly but I know I need to say something. Hope she's doing well, we haven't talked for months.

( PS. If you're reading this Z, I love you and I'm sorry. )
 
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-nobodyknows-

-nobodyknows-

I will face my fate.
Jun 16, 2024
654
No one, unfortunately. I do wish I had someone though
 
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yehxlder.666

yehxlder.666

Paranoid Android
Sep 22, 2024
46
Nobody. There are people i'd die for though.
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
1,490
I guess I am just living for my dog now as I know if I died he would miss me cus I am his favorite person. I also think about maybe living to maybe provide others some enjoyment with the games I am making. I used to want to live for my best friend but as we are interacting less, cus of his mum not liking me, my want to stay for him is waning. I don't life for family as I think they deserve to suffer and grief from my suicide as they created and have prevent my ctb attempts. Tho I am less living for people but cus I literally can't kill myself due to my lack of access to effective methods.
 
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tiredoflife2

Member
Jan 21, 2025
88
My teenage son and my cats.
 
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ringo99

ringo99

Arcanist
Apr 18, 2023
469
I'm still here for my mom. I can't imagine what's going to happen with my mom if I CTB.
Same here. But I will ctb for sure. My only concern is that the money I leave behind should be enough to wipe out the family debts and help her live a normal life for a few more years. I'm more useful dead than alive
 
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kcon1243

Member
Apr 7, 2024
61
Nobody, everyone in my life would be totally fine at the end of the day without me and likely better off so only thing keeping me alive is how much of a pain averse wimp I am.
 
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CanIStopTryingNow

CanIStopTryingNow

Member
Oct 15, 2023
41
My mom and dad
 
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killingmyselfcore

killingmyselfcore

TCCer
Oct 18, 2024
16
my love thats in prison right now and will probably have life in prison
 
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Languish

Languish

A Flower of Flesh and Blood
Feb 7, 2025
127
A dream that doesn't exist.
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
676
I live for my loved ones, but I'm planning to CTB eminently so thay won't hold me back.
 
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maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
1,580
I live for myself, but I also try to be of service to others. For me that's the right thing. I try to live with the thought that maybe this god is real 🤗🌹💔
 
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milkteacrown

milkteacrown

suicidal angel
Feb 16, 2025
70
The number one thing I live for is a hypothetical. I want to make a real human connection and feel attached to it. If I die, I'll never be able to see it.
 
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Grav

Grav

Elementalist
Jul 26, 2020
801
Daughter.
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Arcanist
Feb 9, 2025
434
My mother. She is closest member to me in my family.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
11,264
My Dad.
 
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HighFlight

HighFlight

Global Mod
Jun 28, 2023
698
I remain on this planet to support my family - a wife with cancer, adult children both with mental health and an one with gender dysphoria, aging parents, a sister who was just scammed out of $25k, and of course, all of you who rely on this safe space. On my own, I am nothing. But there are people I need to stick around for in the short term.
 
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HighFlight

HighFlight

Global Mod
Jun 28, 2023
698
The number one thing I live for is a hypothetical. I want to make a real human connection and feel attached to it. If I die, I'll never be able to see it.
What's stopping you from making that happen?
 
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milkteacrown

milkteacrown

suicidal angel
Feb 16, 2025
70
What's stopping you from making that happen?
I don't feel attached to others. Or in other words, I have a complete disinterest in them as a person. If I talked to a friend every day for years and then they moved away and didn't speak to me again, I wouldn't feel anything. It's an issue with my chemistry.
I do desire that connection, though.
 
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whitetaildeer

whitetaildeer

*bleat*
Aug 5, 2024
257
i have one friend i've made on here. absolute darling of a person and i won't @ him; he needs the space right now. and honestly i don't know how he'd react. i get jittery thinking about much much i care about him, and it'd be weird of me to try and put that into words here, as opposed to giving him what i can manage in private.

and as weird as it is, considering how much my father has hurt me (and continues to do so), i live for him as well. i love him despite of it all, and i know he'd take advantage of that if he knew. i'm the only family he has left, and the only person he loves left. it makes me sick to think about what my suicide will do to him.
 
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Despair 7

Despair 7

Member
Feb 7, 2025
24
No one at all, I am just waiting for a chance to suicide as soon as possible
 
HighFlight

HighFlight

Global Mod
Jun 28, 2023
698
I don't feel attached to others. Or in other words, I have a complete disinterest in them as a person. If I talked to a friend every day for years and then they moved away and didn't speak to me again, I wouldn't feel anything. It's an issue with my chemistry.
I do desire that connection, though.
I have similar feelings. I can have a connection if the other person is in the here and now. But as soon as they leave, the connection is gone.

To help overcome this, I've tried to make a conscious effort to stay connected to some people. It does help some, but requires a lot of effort.
 
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sadalways

sadalways

My birth was an error
Sep 5, 2024
294
For my Mom here as well. Also a small hope that i'll find a partner who'd love me for who i am cause that's all i really wanted... but that's pretty much impossible so that hope is slowly fading.
 
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deleteduser853695

deleteduser853695

I swear I tried my best
Feb 26, 2024
128
Nobody. I used to live for some friends of mine in high school, but we lost contact when I moved away. Now they don't respond to my messages.
 
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NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
305
My family and pets. No other reason to be alive really.
 
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