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YandereMikuMistress

YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
705
I just didn't think your friends couldn't even try to treat someone you care about with respect or as a human, acknowledge my existence, why purposely make me uncomfortable why,, I try so hard but then you hate me more after making me uncomfortable I'm closed off and mute, that's no FUN!
Now you won't bring me around then anymore because "you don't enjoy yourself"
I HAVE 0 REAL FRIENDS PLEASE HOLY FUCK PLEASE WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ASKING FOR A BIT OF MUTUAL RESPECT, IM SORRY I DONT ENJOY BEING DEGRADED AND HEARING ABOUT PEOPLE TALK ABOUT THWRE CONQUESTS AND LAUGHING AT THE IDEAS OF VIOLENCE HAPPENING TO WOMEN THEY DEEM "WHORES" IM SORRY I DONT LIKE LISTING TO PEOPLE RANT ABOUT WANTING A TRADITIONAL WIFE TO LITERALLY TAKE CARE OF THEM LIKE BABYS WHILE SIMULTANEOUSLY STILL THINKING ABOUT THE IDEA!! THE IDEA!!! OF HAVING ALL THAT AND STILL GIVING EXPLICIT DETAILS OF HER LIFE TO PEOPLE, SORRY I DONT LIKE TO HEAR ABOUT THE WAYS PEOPLE LIKE TO CASUALLY DEGRAD AND HUMILIATE WOMEN BECAUSE THERE WOMEN! " because what else are we Supposed TO SAY were fundamentally different so sensitive "MY GOD THE LACK OF AWARENESS IN THE CONCEPT OF RESPECT FOR WOMEN !!,, and you know I REALLYYY didn't think you'd care so little about your friends recurring disrespect towards me,, I don't want them to hate me, I try so hard but I don't suck up that's the thing, but I do actually care about his friends and I wish they didn't hate what I am so much, because yes they really don't like women but they "LOVE WOMEN" if you know what I mean, but I thought with every chance I had to be around your friends it'd give me a chance to be fun or idk get involved and ask questions like I want to but when I am around I am ignored and or only involved in topics that have to do with there sex life and how women feel inside and how they'd kill certain women if they could but in the end just wish death to them or about thinking about wanting to hit women or yelling at there mom and cursing at her and making fun of her, ofcourse that shits going to make me uncomfortable it's not okay to talk about another human the way you do completely dehumanizing them for your own amusement,,
It shouldn't even matter but it does because these are your friends and god why don't you care, I just want friends to,, but again "ohh there's things the boys can't talk about with women" clearly not!! If that's the kinda shit you bring up when I'm around, Jesus I can't imagine what there talking about when I'm not there, my stomach feels sick and Im on the ferry but I never get sea sick even before we got on and we're waiting to be loaded onto the boat,, you even made fun of me for asking to come because you don't bring me anymore because they talk about nothing good I said and I know I shouldn't have but then he pretended to be me talking with his hand repeating what I said in an annoying voice,, I'm the problem I just know, I'm so jealous and so fucking lonely,, I want to be wanted..
 
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YandereMikuMistress

YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
705
Haha donno why but I loved this post some silly music in the background and this women's reality that she will do what she wants and you don't need to apart of it but I'm doing it because I want to type deal! The freedom in being able to just do something without the repercussions of someone else
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YandereMikuMistress

YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
705
I feel so fucking sick, I go shopping with my partner and there boss and there co worker nikkita today I wish I could do something for her situation I know robin would have some real ideas,, shes Muslim and her husband has been pre decided since she was a kid her and her boyfriend have been together for 18 years, she comes to Canada with her boyfriend, she manages three different jobs and pays for her and her partners things and cars and food and his phone bills, and for his friends snacks or outings, he use to have a job until he got into crack and nikkita has just figured out that her partner besides already beating her in the past back in there home country has been now making crack in there kitchen and hes recently started putting his hands on her again threating her life saying things like "you know I have many friends l" "I'm the most dangerous man in your life" "if you try leaving me ill kill your grandma and grandpa back home" " I will tell all your relative's" shit like that and he's just fucking terrible! He's been taking her credit card from her before work so he can go spend her money! And she can't say a thing, and just three days she tried locking herself in her bathroom and he broke down the door she wouldn't tell us what he did after he broke the door but she was bruised, this women needs to be helped but they cant call the cops on him or get him taken out of Canada or anything because he's made all the right threats to make her unable to ever act on freeing herself she talks about how she just wants to be loved and cared for like an equal or how she just wants someone who isn't dragging her down completely in the sense that he has no job he has no goals it seems like and is now even into crack another then self entertainment he can't even lift a finger for his partner like he can't, she's givin up on his efforts but she still trys though not as of recently since he's been very irritable, one time she showed me there texts and she was at home and so was he and before she texts him she asks him if he could get her a cup of coffee and mind you they have everything they need at home but bro asks for her bank card and then goes and gets himself a fancy coffee and brings her back a full cup of hot water and he's been threating her and her life allot recently, sorry for the long rant it's just she's so fucking cool why the fuck does she have to have someone like that chained to her all she talks about is not letting her family down but also not wanting to just be a stay at home wife and cook and clean and have kids and clean his clothes, though she also does all those things but she wants it to be more 50/50 because right now she's giving way more then 50% because well she has to she has no other choice, how do you help someone in this situation just because she's in Canada now doesn't mean she's been freed.
 
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Dyingoportunity

What looks so strong, so delicate
May 9, 2025
41
Hi!

I'm in my 20's and I was wondering if any of you also have a worst mental health during your period. I am kind of stable during the rest of the cycle, but during those 3 days my mind just collapses. I get worst and it's so hard to do anything. The suicide thoughts get so so hard and repetitive. And I am somewhat impulse, so I'm 90% sure that if I overcome SI it will be during my period when I'm on my lowest.

So, I wanted to know if any of you also experience this, and If so, do you do something to avoid it or reduce it? And, even if you don't experience it, what activities makes you happy/relax/confortable/etc? I'm just finding solutions to avoid thinking so hard about killing myself during those days.

English is not my first language, so, sorry if something didn't make sense. Let me know and I will fix it.
This happens to me days before mine starts. My depression gets so bad I get desperate to ctb, but it goes away once it actually comes. I just cry somewhere in private and try to distract myself afterwards.
 
Alexei_Kirillov

Alexei_Kirillov

More beast than man
Mar 9, 2024
1,236
I feel suffocated by male sexuality.
 
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jatty

jatty

zero emotional regulation
Nov 13, 2023
51
I feel suffocated by male sexuality.
Oh the female experience. 🙁 I lost my innocence about men a few years ago. A couple days ago my partner admitted only now he's starting to see the act as an "experience" while than just seeing my body. I don't know how to handle being in this world with people like this...
 
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YandereMikuMistress

YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
705
Haha donno why but I loved this post some silly music in the background and this women's reality that she will do what she wants and you don't need to apart of it but I'm doing it because I want to type deal! The freedom in being able to just do something without the repercussions of someone else
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But not dubai I wouldn't want Dubai
Oh the female experience. 🙁 I lost my innocence about men a few years ago. A couple days ago my partner admitted only now he's starting to see the act as an "experience" while than just seeing my body. I don't know how to handle being in this world with people like this...
As don't I,,I've had a similar thing happen, I don't know how to talk about it in actuality because i don't know, i fight with it being my one fault.
 
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jatty

jatty

zero emotional regulation
Nov 13, 2023
51
But not dubai I wouldn't want Dubai

As don't I,,I've had a similar thing happen, I don't know how to talk about it in actuality because i don't know, i fight with it being my one fault.
I don't know youre situation but I support you. After what i have learned, experienced and suffered.. I will always fight for women. You can talk to me if you want
 
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YandereMikuMistress

YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
705
I'm drunk
I don't know youre situation but I support you. After what i have learned, experienced and suffered.. I will always fight for women. You can talk to me if you want
Sorry I'm a bit drunk my grammer is even worse when I drink but thank you, I'll be here too, if you ever need to talk about certain things.
 
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Alexei_Kirillov

Alexei_Kirillov

More beast than man
Mar 9, 2024
1,236
Oh the female experience. 🙁 I lost my innocence about men a few years ago. A couple days ago my partner admitted only now he's starting to see the act as an "experience" while than just seeing my body. I don't know how to handle being in this world with people like this...
God that must've been so hurtful. I sometimes get the sense that male and female sexuality are just irreconcilable. We seem to be replaceable to them, they aren't attracted to us as individuals but just our bodies. Swap one body out with another and it makes no difference as long as it's good eyecandy.

I was also hurt by something my friend-with-benefits said recently (I know, I know, it's not ideal but due to my depression/suicidality I can't entertain an actual relationship right now): so I've been having a hard time lately and naturally, I just wanted to be held, so I told him I needed a hug and he said that "acting needy and making me feel bad for you isn't sexy." Like....?????? That wasn't my goal? Sorry, I forgot that I exist for your pleasure, next time I'll try not to have basic human needs.
 
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YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
705


My heart goes out to her, This is so disturbing. The thought of being alone in that store with him and having to do whatever he said is horrifying. It's sad that the instinct to just go along with it, hoping to be spared, would likely be my reaction, Being just about under 100lbs, the idea of confronting people like this feels impossible, as it could easily escalate things. It highlights the terrible fear of complying versus the potential consequences of not,,
It's that awfully unfair feeling of being trapped between complying and the potential of even greater danger.
 
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YandereMikuMistress

YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
705
I'm working all day cleaning up after the mess yall leave behind everyday, not that I wanted to be without a job but you spin your spinning wheel as if your laying your web,, the fact I shouldn't clean when your around because
"your supposed to be focusing on meee"
waaa! waaa! waaa!
Meanwhile it's just me sitting there watching him do whatever he wants, not me, not often,, not like he asks me questions anymore since he got his kiss,, if I acted just a bit how I want it'd ruin "the imagine"
Like it initially,, till your no longer fascinated idk! to dance out at 10 under the moon or inside your room, no more ocean side swoons,, your all done and damn ain't it blueee

when I start to relax just a little you make sure to tell me to "relax"

Feels like you don't even know me,, or you don't want too, I've had experiences like this with my brothers and co workers,, always an outsider, forever entombed.


Now a little random but I found this video on FB this morning and the comment section is absolutely deplorableeee!! So many men in the comments got rage baited but not even!! Bc why get upset over somthing you yourself don't do right? But nah it's all excuses for the behavior seen in this video,,
And I don't like the video entirely either but if you take it to seriously like some do lumping every boyfriend together or husband together and somehow confusing her video thinking she's representing all boyfriends/husbands whatever as the way shes describing some boyfriends to be then holy fuck you are the problem.


It actually hurts seeing so many men making excuses for there lack of respect and effort they have for there significant other, the one I keep seeing is "these are all just little things" they stay maintainable BECAUSE SHE CLEANS UP AFTER YOU, if she didn't and let it build up,, you'd be complaining too, and or blaming your partner for not putting in enough effort, but like why put in effort when it's always just in vain an to go unnoticed unless the women herself tells you what to do or how to have it everytimeee,,
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We or at least I commend Ciara Michelle for her comment.


Andd while I'm at it I had a very awkward conversation with the pharmacist and it was one of the most humiliating experiences of my life, not that it should be but the way he kept trying to get me on birth control almost had me gagging, just because it's somthing that makes me uncomfortable anything sexual really, it makes me very uncomfortable and, I always told myself I won't take birth control because of the side effects and the way it can effect your body long term and agh so much it's just gross to me how people are so easy to use birth control, to each there own but i just dont agree with how idk how much birth control pillsed are pushed onto ppl and recommend for ppl as soon as they hear one thing that has to do with sex bros never met me before I get one plan B and I don't even need it! I'm on my period! But my own anxiety had me thinking I'll get one just In case, and even that disgusted me typing this disgusts me,, this is to much Information but I mainly only get my partner off so i don't have to sleep with them,, it's just something I find very uncomfortable and it disturbs me so the rare times he can't listin to "no" my no response to the question then I might need the pill but mabye not even then,,, I'm not sure how to talk about this without coming off as disturbed,,


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I Know the pharmacist was only trying to help but I already have heard to much bad things about birth control and the idea of it just repulses me, especially the ppl who idk rave about how much they love birth control against to each there own but i don't think it should be praised likes it's the Holy Grail.
 
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YandereMikuMistress

YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
705
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After having to hold my tongue with my mysoginist old traditionalist grandma today for what has to be more then the 100th time,, and the first post I see opening fucking Facebook I thought it was a funny video and goofy suggesting her husband put his dirty clothes in the laundry basket that's less then five feet away, and that too comment made me happy but that faded seeing so many men say otherwise... I didn't want to be born like this okay, but accursedly I was.
 

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