Your biggest regret in life?

[divinemistress36]

Not being on like 4 years ago when N was available

 

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[CapitánBeto]

I guess my biggest regret is all the time I've wasted in my early 20s being depressed and lost... while trying to make sense of the me and the world.
If I could, I would get into college to study Physics as soon as I finished high school and also a get part-time job to be self-sufficient.

my biggest regret is ever having to be born into this shithole species humanity on this shithole and hellhole earth

my biggest regret is that I didn't gave my mother some kind of telepathic message in the womb that she should abort me asap

 

[voldetort785]

I just wish I'd never tried. My parents were adamant that I was 'soooo intelligent' and special. My Dad was someone who was unusually successful, came from poverty and made something of himself, very intelligent guy. I knew even when I was sixteen that I was an absolute failure and an idiot, and I begged my parents not to send me to college, but they wouldn't listen. I regret not being stronger and leaving home at that time, instead I caved and have spent my life failing and failing and failing. I'm so embarrassed by myself all the time; there's something so humiliating by trying to achieve great things and failing all the time because everyone laughs at the fact that someone like me would even try.................and they're absolutely right. I'm also female so even if I had done great things, my achievements would be pointless with the way the world is going. The only thing I'm truly proud of in my life is that I never had children.

As another poster said, it's all just pointless suffering.

 

[OblivionTurtle]

Not kms when I was 17

 

[Forveleth]

Not telling my emotionally abusive husband to fuck off 12 years ago.

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

She sounds like a psychopath.

For me. No. I don't any regrets. I have wishes, desires that my circumstances would have been different. But I'm satisfied with how I played the game given the pieces I had. I may have lost, but I learned a lot along the way. If there is a cycle of some kind maybe I'll do better on the next round.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Not killing myself when i got my SN or shotgun 3 years ago.

 

[genie]

Going to an all boys school instead of the co-ed.

 

[BlueLock]

My biggest regret is that I did not leave my batshit insane "mother" after I turned 18. I will kill myself because the damage is too great and can never be undone. I have no idea how I survived my childhood and teen years. The most unberable part is that she's literally not capable of basic human connection and she does not feel bad for abusing me, she's never sorry for what she's done, she only cares about herself. She expects me to serve her 24/7 as if it's the only reason I exist. Vile fucking excuse of a person, the only reason she had me is (quote) "I just wanted someone to love me and take care of me". Yet when I was a child/teen I was treated like a burden and me merely expressing basic human needs would send her into fits of hysterical rage, she would scream at me for hours about how selfish and ungrateful I am and she's literally the most mistreated person on the planet. She's the reason I became suicidal at 12 she blamed almost all of her adult problems on me and expected me to clean up her mess
I believe my brain is beyond repair, I feel nothing, I want nothing, I look forward to nothing. Nothing is left of me.

My heart goes out to you op it seems like we live similar lives, there's really no pain like the pain of your mother hating you/forcing you to hate her...

 

[Etoile-T]

My greatest regret is that I didn't have the courage to commit suicide at the age of 11. As a result, I have been hurting my family and myself ever since.

 

[Rhymester]

Being naive, having hope, and not killing myself sooner.

 

[savethesememories]

my biggest regret is letting my trauma break me. i wish i was stronger but i just can't. i've become an empty shell of the bright young girl i once was

 

[sancta-simplicitas]

Seeking psychiatric care. I'll bitterly regret that decision for the rest of my life, which has been drastically shortened thanks to those lovely people.

 

[25jiyuki]

That I've allowed myself to stay alive this long, despite wanting to die my entire life.

 

[nomoredolor]

Not convincing him to stay

 

[idk3]

Not sure I have any. Things just always felt out of my control because I didn't win the genetic lottery, and was raised in a dysfunctional family with bad role models. I don't think anything could've changed my circumstances.

 

[Hotsackage]

Don't really have one, cause the universe had other plans, so. I do wish I could have a relationship, even then not in my control.

 

[disabledlife]

Born disabled, simply born.
Not having the right to die at one's request, at any time, according to one's convenience, one's method, without required reasons or restrictions!

 

[citrusrope]

Every single thing I do I end up regretting in some way I can't really think of anything that I did that I haven't grilled myself for.

 

[Tumblewillow]

Attempting suicide at 20.
I lost everybody as I was "killing" them and started having panic attacks to boot.

 

[Outofoptions1]

Hurting my girlfriend and ruining our relationship. She was legitimately the perfect partner and loved me so, so, so much. I hurt her deeply and I will never find love like that again.

 

[Gabbi_Station]

Not committing CBT at 19. I attempted but lived.

I have on and off been suicidal throughout most of my life. The harsh truth is- it never gets better. Life is just damn miserable

 

[ventingfrustrations]

That I'm going to die with alot of secrets ones I won't even post about because I deserve to live with them

 

[Boots2Scoots]

My biggest regret is not being an honest person. I've always been kind-hearted and cared about others. But I gained my mom's sneaky tendencies unfortunately. Through that, my integridy was non-existent which caused me to stop thinking/caring about my actions for a while.

These bad decisions (I call them decisions because unfortunately, I made them totally concious and not on accident) will be costing me everything in life sooner than later. Even if not through CTB, I'm going to lose it all and become one of the most vilified and hated members of society. (I know it sounds like the rambling of a schizo but I'm not that. I'm just a fucking idiot.)

Had I just ONCE been honest with myself and others, I'd have honestly never been pushed far enough to find this forum. And I sure as fuck wouldn't be meticulously planning this last chapter.

Fuckin hate it. But hey, that's life sometimes. I still know deep down I AM a good person with a lot of great qualities. But none of it is redeeming enough for a guy like me. *end rant*

 

[AllHopeIsLost]

Ruining my health

 

[Defenestration]

To be born....

 

[ilvgore]

my biggest regret is not overcoming my many fears. Fears of being rejected for being me fear of being shamed it brought me so much pain because i chose fear instead of human connection thats why i lost the love of my life because of my poor self esteem i regret making such poor choices

 

[Kyotospade]

Not dying sooner

 

[maneose]

giving up at such a young age