Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be waiting to die to me.
No matter what I'll always see existing as just being waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it and I always suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, torturous existence I never would had chosen.

I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel, terrible and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily.

I really will only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence that to me is just waiting to die and I suffer simply from existing, I truly would never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence, I'll just always see this futile, dreadful existence as just waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it, I could never see a point to any of this and I wish I never suffered more than anything, as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace from suffering, I just want to never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hope to sleep permanently.
No matter what all I could hope for is to sleep permanently, I just wish for peace from all the suffering, I just wish to be permanently free from this dreadful, cruel existence I always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm and suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing.

It's all so cruel to me and there's just so much cruelty and suffering in this torturous, deeply undesirable existence I never would had chosen, for me non-existence is just the only relief, it's all I've ever hoped for, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this existence.

As long as I exist I'll just hope to never wake again, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured no matter what and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel, dreadful and terrible to me and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I never would had chosen, all I wish for is the peace of non-existence, I just want to never exist again with this dreadful, cruel existence finally all forgotten and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and I wish I never suffered more than anything, only non-existence can bring me any peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I suffer so much as a result of this existence.
I truly do suffer so much as a result of this existence and I'd just never wish for the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again and I'll just always see existing as only suffering.

It's all so cruel and terrible to me and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence really is the only relief in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering.

I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I just never would had chosen.

For me non-existence really is the only peace and all I hope for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, futile existence, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable, I just wish to be at peace from all pain and suffering, I just wish to be gone, I just want to never suffer ever again, I'll just always see existence as an abomination that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, it's all so terrible, futile and dreadful and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just so futile.
It truly is so futile to me and I could never see a point to any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in dreamless eternal sleep and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and terrible and I'd never wish for any of this.

I always suffer so much from being denied the option to peacefully cease existing to free myself from all futile unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for, for me only non-existence is positive, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence that just causes harm and suffering torturing existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so dreadful and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace. I just hope for non-existence to solve everything for me and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so futile and torturous and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll just always see existence as the most terrible tragedy, it's all so cruel to me and I'd just never wish to exist, all I hope for is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only seeing non-existence as positive.
For me no matter what only non-existence could ever be positive, I just want to never suffer in this dreadful, torturous, futile and deeply undesirable existence ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence, for me non-existence is just the only peace and is all I could hope for.

I just want all to be forgotten for me in non-existence, all I want is to never suffer ever again, I wish for non-existence as all I want is to be unconscious for all eternity, I'd never wish for the dreadful and cruel burden of existing as a human that I never would had chosen in the first place.

Only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself and the peace of non-existence is just all I see as desirable, all I wish for is no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so terrible and painful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake, only non-existence can solve everything for me and is just all I see as positive in this existence so cruel and dreadful that I never would had chosen and would never wish for, I wish I never suffered more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

All I want is to never exist ever again.
I truly do just hope and wish to never exist again, all I wish for is an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where this deeply undesirable, torturous existence I never would had chosen is finally all gone and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, all I hope for is no more pain and no more suffering.

I just want to never wake again with all finally gone and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel and terrible and I'd just never wish for any of this suffering rather all I want is to not exist. I just want to never suffer again but of course all the suffering of this dreadful, torturous existence continues and I always wish I never suffered more than anything, for me non-existence really is the only peace and relief in this existence so dreadful that I never would had chosen and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel and painful to me and I'd never wish to exist rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just want some peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired.
I truly am always so tired and it's tiredness only non-existence can take away for me but of course all the suffering just continues and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all so cruel and terrible and I just wish I never existed.

I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only eternal sleep can take away for me, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is to never exist again, I just wish for non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence so torturous that I never would had chosen and would just never wish for.

I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I'm just so tired of it all, all I want is to never wake again, I just hope for non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for from this painful, torturous existence where I suffer so unnecessarily hoping and wishing to be gone, for me non-existence is just all I see as desirable, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer.
I truly will only be at peace once I no longer suffer and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence I just always saw as a mistake, it's all so cruel to me and I wish I never existed more than anything.

I'd never wish for any of this suffering rather all I want is some peace, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I just suffer so much because of being burdened with this existence, as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish for non-existence.

I just want to never wake again but of course all the pain and suffering just continues and I suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, torturous existence I never would had chosen and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, I just want to never wake ever again, I only hope and wish for some peace and I'll only be at peace in non-existence where finally all is gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so dreadful to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it so dreadful to exist and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer again, I just wish for peace from this existence I always saw as a mistake and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this cruel, futile existence, it's just all so terrible to me.

I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer, in this existence so dreadful only non-existence can bring me any peace from the suffering of existing and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I just want to never suffer again but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again.
I truly do always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again and I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous, dreadful existence rather all I want is to not exist.

I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and bring me the peace from suffering I search for and as long as I exist I'll just hope and wish to never wake, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being conscious burdened with this existence.

It truly is all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is to not exist, I just wish for non-existence to bring me peace and I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as such a terrible, cruel burden to exist, all I want is to never suffer again. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just always suffer so much as a result of this cruel, deeply undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake that just causes and brings so much harm and suffering and I'd never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm and suffering.
It truly does just cause harm and suffering torturing existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this cruel, futile existence.

For me non-existence really is the only relief in this existence where there's all this endless suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake.

I just wish for non-existence to solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for from this existence where I suffer so unnecessarily just hoping and waiting to be gone and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace and I suffer so much as a result of this cruel, harmful existence, all I want is to never exist ever again and there's just so much suffering, pain and cruelty in existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired.
I truly am always so tired of it all and it's tiredness only non-existence can take away for me, all I want is to never suffer again, I just wish for eternal dreamless sleep with this dreadful, cruel existence all forgotten and I suffer simply from existing.

I really would never wish for any of this suffering rather all I want is to peacefully cease existing and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again to finally escape from the suffering of existing as all I want is to never suffer again, I just want peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm unconscious for all eternity free from this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence I'm always so tired of, I've just always felt so tired of suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

To cease existing is all I hope for.
It truly is all I hope for in this existence of endless cruelty and suffering and I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what than suffer, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for but of course all the suffering just continues.

It's all so dreadful and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence where I just hope and wait to be gone and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this torturous existence, all I want is to not exist, I just want to never exist again.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this existence where I suffer so unnecessarily and I'll always see existing as only suffering, all I want is peace from all suffering, I truly will only hope to be gone as long as I exist, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always find it so painful to suffer in this existence just waiting to die anyway, I truly do always suffer so much as a result of this existence, all I want is to never exist again, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me with no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting all to be gone for me.
No matter what all I could hope is for all to be gone for me in non-existence, all I want is to never suffer again with this dreadful, torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake finally all gone and forgotten.

I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful and I always wish and hope to erase this existence so it's like I never suffered, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, for me non-existence really is the only peace and relief in this existence so undesirable and I suffer simply from existing.

I'd just always prefer to not exist and only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me any relief and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I just always saw as a mistake, I really would just never wish for any of this suffering rather all I want is to never exist again, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself and I suffer simply from existing, I really do just want all to be gone for me, I just want to erase this existence, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and there's just so much suffering in existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in eternal sleep will I be at peace.
I really will only be at peace in eternal sleep and the peace of non-existence really is all I could hope and wish for, I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being conscious in this torturous, dreadful, deeply undesirable existence I never would had wished for.

It feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake and as long as I exist I'll only hope for some peace, I just want to never wake ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this, for me non-existence truly is the only relief and is all I wish for is to be gone.

I just want to never suffer ever again and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, in this existence so cruel, torturous and dreadful only non-existence can solve everything for me, I just want to never wake, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where finally nothing can concern me and there is no suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what, all I want is to never wake again and finally be free from it all, all I want is some peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just the only peace for me.
It truly is the only peace for me and is just all I hope for in this existence so cruel and dreadful that just causes endless amounts of suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible to me and I wish that more than anything I never existed.

I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to finally escape from this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in existing, it's all so cruel and terrible and I wish that more than anything I never had to suffer, I just never should had been burdened with this cruel, futile and torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, all I want is to never wake ever again.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so dreadful and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of non-existence where finally all is gone and nothing can concern me, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this futile, cruel existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for, all I want is to never exist again with all finally gone for me and I suffer simply from existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always see existence as a mistake.
I really will always see existence as a mistake and it's one only non-existence can bring me any relief from, all I want is to never suffer again with this dreadful, torturous existence finally all gone but of course all the suffering just continues.

I always suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, it's all so futile to me and I'd just never wish for any of this, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want some peace.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for from the mistake of existence, I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist, all I want is some peace, I just want to never exist again, all I hope for is no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of the mistake of existence and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I really would never want to suffer in this existence rather all I want is some peace, I just want to never wake again with this torturous, cruel existence finally all gone and forgotten.

I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in eternal sleep and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, all I want is to never wake again, in this existence so torturous and futile for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I see as desirable. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see this cruel existence as only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I just want to never wake again, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence so cruel and torturous that I always saw as a mistake but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered, I just never should had suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

To cease existing is just always preferable for me.
It really is always preferable for me than suffering so unnecessarily and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, it feels like I've suffered so much for so long and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist again.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from the cruelty and suffering of this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence, I just want to never exist again, I just wish for peace.

I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for, I'd just always prefer to cease existing anyway, I find it so undesirable to exist in every way and I'm just so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily just waiting for death anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just always so painful.
No matter what I really will always find it so painful to exist and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this existence, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake.

There's just so much pain, so much suffering and cruelty in existing and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to be gone, I'll always find it so painful to exist and it's pain only eternal dreamless sleep can take away for me, all I hope for is to not exist.

I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering of existing just continues and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing to free myself from the abomination of existence, to me existence really does feel like a mistake and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so cruel to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist again, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence just waiting to die and I'll always see this painful existence as just waiting for death.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for any of this suffering.
I truly would never wish for any of this suffering and I wish I never suffered in this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just hope for non-existence where finally all is gone and forgotten.

I just want to never exist again but of course all the suffering of existing just continues and I'd never wish for any of it rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just want no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being conscious in this existence.

I just wish for some peace and for me non-existence is just the only peace, all I want is to never exist again and in this existence so dreadful only non-existence can solve everything for me, I just wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of existing. I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me and I'd just always prefer to not exist, only non-existence can bring me any relief from the terrible, tragic mistake of existence and I suffer so much as a result of existence, I just would never wish for any of this suffering rather all I want is to never wake, I just want to not exist and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence I never would had chosen and would never wish for no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be only suffering to me.
It truly will always be only suffering to me and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this torturous, cruel existence where I suffer so unnecessarily just hoping and waiting to be gone.

As long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer ever again, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence so dreadful that I never would had chosen and never would had wished for and there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing.

I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what and only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence where I suffer so unnecessarily just hoping to be gone and as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace from all the suffering, I just want to never wake ever again, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what than suffer and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all just so cruel to me, I'll always see it as so dreadful to be burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will always be the problem to me.
It really will always be the problem to me and I wish that more than anything I never suffered in this dreadful, torturous existence I never would had chosen, for me simply just existing is enough to make me wish for non-existence, all I hope for is no more pain and no more suffering.

I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence where I'm just waiting for death and I'll always see existing as waiting to die, it's just futile unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I just suffer so much as a result of existence, all I want is to never wake again, for me only non-existence is positive. I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see this cruel, torturous existence as only suffering no matter what and I'd never wish for any of this suffering rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never exist ever again, all I wish for is peace from this existence of unnecessary suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, for me existence really will always be the problem and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me any peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so terrifying how a human can suffer for so long.
I truly do find it so terrifying how a human can suffer for so long in this dreadful, torturous existence and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer again.

I just want all to be gone for me in non-existence and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering only non-existence can bring me peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence.

I'll just always see it as the most torturous, futile burden to exist, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never exist ever again, only non-existence can bring me any peace but of course all the suffering just continues and I find it so terrifying how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured by old age, for me non-existence really is the only relief and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist ever again. I'll just always find it so dreadful to suffer in this torturous, futile existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this, I just wish for no more suffering and I'll always see this torturous existence as only suffering no matter what, it's all so cruel and I'd never wish for any of this.

 

[Alexandra0]

I'm so sorry you're suffering so much. It's unbearable, all this pain and hopelessness

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so painful to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it so painful to exist and I wish I never suffered in this torturous existence more than anything, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace and the peace of non-existence is just all I see as desirable.

I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being conscious burdened with this painful, torturous existence just waiting to die anyway, I'll always find it so terrible to exist and I suffer so much as a result of existing, I just want to not exist, I just want to never exist again but of course all the suffering just continues and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing to finally escape from this torturous, cruel existence of unnecessary suffering where I just hope and wait to be gone and I'll always see existing as waiting to die. It's just suffering all for the sake of it and I'd never wish to suffer in this painful existence I always saw as a mistake rather all I want is some peace, I just want all to be gone for me in non-existence with no more suffering, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily no matter what, I just wish and hope for peace from the pain of existing and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist means to suffer.
To me, existing really means to suffer and it feels like I've suffered for so long, I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I always saw as such a terrible mistake and I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence so torturous and dreadful and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

I just want to never suffer again and I'll always see this cruel, dreadful existence as only suffering and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I'll just always see it as so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible to me and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, it's all so terrible to me and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this deeply undesirable torturous existence and I'll always see existence as the problem and I'd never wish for any of this. For me non-existence really just is the only relief and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence where I'm just waiting to die and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I wish to never suffer ever again and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what, it's all so cruel and terrible.

 

[FuneralCry]

The cruelty of peaceful death being denied
I really do see so much cruelty in how peaceful death is denied with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again as non-existence is just all I hope for, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always see this torturous, dreadful existence as only suffering.

All I want is to be free from it all and never exist ever again and all I want is a peaceful, painless death with no more cruelty and no more suffering, it really is such a horrific world and I'll always see existence as an abomination causing and bringing so much harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, I'd just never wish for any of this suffering rather all I want is true permanent peace, I just want to never wake again, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the suffering of existing and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence so dreadful I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence I never would had chosen and would never wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I've hoped for.
It truly is all I've hoped for and all I want is to never suffer in this cruel, torturous and futile existence ever again, all I see as desirable is an eternal sleep free from all pain, cruelty and suffering where all is forgotten and finally I can be at peace.

I just want to never suffer again but of course all the suffering of existing just continues, it's all so terrible and dreadful and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just wish for some peace from the pain, cruelty and suffering of existing and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake.

Non-existence really is all I hope for and could ever wish for, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me, I just wish for peace from this painful, cruel existence where I suffer so unnecessarily hoping and waiting to be gone and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so terrible to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it so terrible to exist and I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never wake ever again.

Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from the futile, dreadful abomination of existence I just always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and I wish I never existed more than anything.

All I hope for is no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always find it so terrible to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence just waiting for death and I'll always see existing as just being waiting to die, it's just pain and suffering all for the sake of it and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, all I want is to never wake again. I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace from all the pain and suffering I search for and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this terrible, dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake I never would had chosen and would just never wish for.